Dear LiveJournal,

My apologies for neglecting you.  The neglect for you is analogous to the neglect I've shown in many aspects of my life.  The weird truth is that I haven't neglected you simply out of forgetfulness or lack of interest.  In fact, the reason I've neglected you is shame - and the fear of having to confront this shame.

Over time, I've ( Read more... )

I need a release here.
I need a cigarette here.
Watching the smoke drift delicately from the tip of my fingers, while on a chilly evening in the noisy city, relaxes me.
I just need to sit here right now.
And let the thoughts drift out of my mind freely, much like the smoke that emanates from the tip of my cigarette.

It's cleansing.
It's numbing.
It's ( Read more... )

One year ago today, I arrived in Montreal to start a new chapter in my life.

Below are some highlights - especially since it's been too long since I've posted pictures on this thing.


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I managed to open a Pandora's Box from the past that I should have kept miles and miles away from. Doing so made me realize how lucky I am for having someone like Logan in my life. We've been apart for just over a week, and I was doing fine with enjoying my space. But, today, in the fallout of this recent incident with someone I hooked up with ( Read more... )

One of the things I enjoy pondering over is comparing the costs/benefits of owning a car versus ditching it.  When I moved to Montreal, part of that process involved getting rid of my beloved car.  We're living in a time now in the US when policy is shifting (albeit glacially) towards encouraging public transit.  While this is great for reducing ( Read more... )

I deleted my OkCupid profile.  For the moment, it felt like a little piece of me died.  It's weird deleting an online identity of myself.  And, I mean, it was just for a dating site.  I couldn't imagine how traumatic it would be if I deleted something as central to my online life like my Facebook or LJ account ( Read more... )

A few weeks ago, I sent out my last e-mail as an executive of Queer McGill ( Read more... )

I need to be better at confronting things ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I think to myself ( Read more... )

My western Ohio trip was wonderful!  I was able to see nearly all of my good friends back in Dayton.  I also managed to do nearly everything on my to-do list: shopping, clubbing, eating at beloved Dayton spots, etc.  I hung out at May Daze at Wright State and attended the annual Mu Crew Retreat, two of the biggest deals that I was involved with in ( Read more... )