Jun 07, 2010 03:10
I deleted my OkCupid profile. For the moment, it felt like a little piece of me died. It's weird deleting an online identity of myself. And, I mean, it was just for a dating site. I couldn't imagine how traumatic it would be if I deleted something as central to my online life like my Facebook or LJ account!
Maybe, the next day, I will feel liberated - instead of this desperate need to cling onto some virtual image of myself...
And, this is not a statement against online dating, or anything of that sort. I just figured these were the least painful of things I could get rid of, in my efforts to reduce my online footprint.
I spend way too much time on these sites. It's incredible. When I first joined Facebook, I never would've seen myself checking it constantly. Especially on rainy weekends during which I stay inside all day. It's incredible how consumed we can get with our own narcissism.
Sadly, it's these online addictions that have made me so terribly unproductive. I always learned that cigarettes were addicting, but nobody ever told me how destructive the Internet could be on my productivity and lifestyle. Perhaps it was a good thing after all that I did not have home internet access until I was in college. I could only imagine that having fucked up my high school years...
Never fear, though, LJ. I have no intention on deleting you. You've been a wonderful little tool for me. You've helped me become better at expressing myself, at critically analyzing myself, and at archiving my exciting little life. For those reasons, you're safe.
Online dating sites, on the other hand, it is time to sashay away now. Thank you.
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