long days ahead of me
GLAZED OVER
and i'm not talking about donuts.
i'm seriously a walking zombie right now. the only time i'm ever really conciously aware of what i'm doing is when i talk. otherwise, all my actions are like...possessed (but in a good way). i'm tired.
this mroning i woke up early and went to substitute at a private school...the kids there are SO cute. i think being around kids really helps me to remember why i wanted to be a teacher. i totally love being around kids. they are SO cute. one of the little boys in my class reminded me of that little boy from Kindergarten Cop. and a lot of the kids just made me want to hug them.
one of the boys was playing by himself on the playground and i felt really bad for him. i woulda played with him except that i'm the teacher, and i guess we can't really play. hahaa. and then another little girl came up to me and was like, "i dont' have anyone to play with, miss katherine." and i wanted to be like, I"LL PLAY WITH YOU, you cutie."
*sigh*. i need a kid. hahahaa. seriously, i think i'm so ready to be a mom right now. i know that is a freaky thing to say, but so many people would agree with me. i almost want to just skip the husband part and go straight to being a mom. woooo.
INDY JONES
OH MY GOSH. i have been waiting for this day to happen. indiana jones is finally out in dvd, with all of it's movies in a pack!!! eek. i'm excited. one of the only highlights of my week, probably the year :)
i will own it.
CONTINUING MY RANDOM TRAIN OF THOUGHTS
this won't exactly follow the train of thought in the previous entry..but oh well. hahaa. sorry.
anyway, before i forget, i'm going to answer a question that a lot of people have/do ask me: is listening to lovey-dovey songs bad for you (as in me)? haha.
no. it's not. i don't know how it's not, but i've been lisetning to love songs since sunny 99.1 freshman year of hs. no, it doesn't make me want a boyfriend, and no i'm not thinking of someone in particular when i listen to them. i just listen to them. i think the words are sweet. i'm a sucker for sweet things. (you gotta admit, some of the words to love songs are sooooo ooey-gooey-could-you-really-say-that-in-real-life-to-someone sweet). so there ya go.
okay now back to my train of thought...this entry will be dedicated to all the BUBs i have known in my life. if you don't know what a BUB is, well, figure it out yourself as you keep reading.
i think one of the reasons why dating has become less appealing to me is becuase of how much people change when they start dating. i don't want to change for the worse. and it seems like people somehow always change for the worse when they start dating. and yeah, i'm saying that because my whole life, i've been a BUB.
after watching a couple of my friends get boyfriends, i've come to realize one of the mistakes i made when i was dating. did i REALLY spend all my time with that guy? treat him like he was the ONLY thing in my life? (yeah, sadly, the answer to both those questions is yes). but i guess at the time i was so blinded by "love" that i didn't care. but honestly, i guess you don't know these things til after you've dated.
so slap me if that ever happens to me again. so what does that have to do with being a BUB? well, for one, nobody likes to be one. who likes to be called to hang out just because your friend's significant other isn't there? or just cuz he's busy and she can't find anyone else to talk to b/c she lost all her friends since she started dating? catch my drift? kinda figuring out what a BUB is now?
i think i've been a BUB my whole life. i hated it. but you know what? now i'm used to it. it's not anything to be happy about. but i guess that's what happens when friends start dating and leave you in the dust. and don't get me wrong, i'm not directing this towards anyone in particular...just kinda venting about previous friendships...and my own mistakes.
i feel like because i've been around friends and their significant others so much, i'm able to see a lot of things that i don't want in a future relationship. like spending obscene amounts of time together. now really...if you're going to be married and you'll be spending the REST of your lives together, why not use the present time to spend with your friends? i never understand that. so yeah...that's one thing i don't want. if i ever date again, i'm spending time with my friends whenever i want to. they're just as important. and seirously, keep me accountable about what i'm saying right now. and drag me into an alley and slap me if i don't hold myself to it.
what's with the lovey-dovey-baby-talk? ugh. gross me out and cut my ears off. seriously. i find it annoying and just EEEEEEEEEEEK. i can hear it in my head right now, and i'm eeking cuz it's so eww. just cut it out. i personally think it sickens the people around you. (and once again, i dont' even know who i'm talking to while i'm writing this...just random thoughts about things i learned from observing other people's relationships). and even if there is no baby voice, there's still this pleading-i'm-a-little-girl/boy-so-just-say-okay tone of voice that is used.
i'm not a beggar. and even if it's something that i want to beg about, i don't send my baby voice in to help me. i'm freakin' 23 years old. i dont' wear diapers nor do i pretend i have pigtails with bows in them. same with you.
alright. now enough about relationships.
SECOND PART of the SECOND PART of RANDOM THOUGHTS
well i guess i kinda already talked about friendships in the previous section. (the BUB part...and if you still dont' know what that is, just ask me). but i guess this section is for those people who can relate to what i'm talking about...
i think growing up, i've always been a good listener. is that a spiritual gift? haha. who knows. well anyway, i'm a good listener. i know that. my friends know that. so my whole life i've basically been this huge EAR to everyone around me. which of course, i never mind b/c hey, that's what friends are for. to listen, pray, or give suggestions.
but don't ears sometimes want to be mouths too? i mean, we do all the listening, but when it comes our time to find an ear to hear, everyone's turned deaf. and all of a sudden you're this mute mouth. you make sounds, but no one hears you.
i've known less than a handful of people who know what i'm talking about, or can truly relate to me. right now, i still don't mind it. i'm always there to listen when friends have something to share or just want to babble. but are you going to listen to me babble and share when i need it? (i suppose that's what this journal is for...so you don't actually have to hear me talk..haha. :)
do you know people who are like that? or maybe it's the friend that you always share stuff with, but have suddenly realized that they don't share much with you. are you even listening to them when they want to share? do you even KNOW that they want to share? you gotta look out for your friends that are like that.
like i said in the past entry...you may think you KNOW someone, but when it comes down to it, do you really know them? i'm an easy person to read, but just because you can read me, doesn't mean you know what exactly i'm thinking or how i'm feeling. cuz readings can be inaccurate, or fake. know what i mean? everyone can play off feelings. especially those people who spent their whole lives doing the listneing instead of the talking.
i know there's a lot of people like that out there. i'm sure you know people like that in your circle of friends. spend time in getting to truly know them. the thing with people these days is that we think we're too busy for that. we're not. if we were, i woulnd't be here typing in my journal. if we were too busy for it, we woulnd't be online chatting when we could be chatting in person. that's quality time. friendships take work...are you willing to put time into it?
it's 11:30pm, and i'm tired. it's been a long day. i would seriously rather be talking than typing. but...this is my only means of communication with some people b/c we're all too busy. so the only way you know of anything going on in my mind is by reading my online journal, which, i might add, is available to the rest of the world to read. hmmmmm.
once again, i am a random person. my mind thinks about the weirdest things. once during bible study, i stated that i probably thinka bout ten different things in 30 seconds. i wasn't lying. that's how random i am. hahaa. i say what i think, and there's all there is to it. wow, something else you just learned about me if you didn't already know.
speaking of which...
my legs really itch right now. the only thing i hate about cold weather is that it makes your skin dry, which makes it itchy. i need lotion.
the glass in my arm is really starting to hurt. and now it's a huge bump. i look like i have a second elbow. (btw, that's the minor surgery i might be having). i need to see the doctor. hoo-ah.
BOOK IS ME
okay i dont even know what that means. bad grammar. anyway, i was talking to jana tonighta bout writing a book. i've wanted to write a book about random thoughts for a long time...but if i really did, the only people who'd want to read it are people i know. and even THAT is a maybe. haha. some people find my randomness comical. others find it insightful. others find that i must really be bored. perhaps. we'll see.
and i'm not talking about donuts.
i'm seriously a walking zombie right now. the only time i'm ever really conciously aware of what i'm doing is when i talk. otherwise, all my actions are like...possessed (but in a good way). i'm tired.
this mroning i woke up early and went to substitute at a private school...the kids there are SO cute. i think being around kids really helps me to remember why i wanted to be a teacher. i totally love being around kids. they are SO cute. one of the little boys in my class reminded me of that little boy from Kindergarten Cop. and a lot of the kids just made me want to hug them.
one of the boys was playing by himself on the playground and i felt really bad for him. i woulda played with him except that i'm the teacher, and i guess we can't really play. hahaa. and then another little girl came up to me and was like, "i dont' have anyone to play with, miss katherine." and i wanted to be like, I"LL PLAY WITH YOU, you cutie."
*sigh*. i need a kid. hahahaa. seriously, i think i'm so ready to be a mom right now. i know that is a freaky thing to say, but so many people would agree with me. i almost want to just skip the husband part and go straight to being a mom. woooo.
INDY JONES
OH MY GOSH. i have been waiting for this day to happen. indiana jones is finally out in dvd, with all of it's movies in a pack!!! eek. i'm excited. one of the only highlights of my week, probably the year :)
i will own it.
CONTINUING MY RANDOM TRAIN OF THOUGHTS
this won't exactly follow the train of thought in the previous entry..but oh well. hahaa. sorry.
anyway, before i forget, i'm going to answer a question that a lot of people have/do ask me: is listening to lovey-dovey songs bad for you (as in me)? haha.
no. it's not. i don't know how it's not, but i've been lisetning to love songs since sunny 99.1 freshman year of hs. no, it doesn't make me want a boyfriend, and no i'm not thinking of someone in particular when i listen to them. i just listen to them. i think the words are sweet. i'm a sucker for sweet things. (you gotta admit, some of the words to love songs are sooooo ooey-gooey-could-you-really-say-that-in-real-life-to-someone sweet). so there ya go.
okay now back to my train of thought...this entry will be dedicated to all the BUBs i have known in my life. if you don't know what a BUB is, well, figure it out yourself as you keep reading.
i think one of the reasons why dating has become less appealing to me is becuase of how much people change when they start dating. i don't want to change for the worse. and it seems like people somehow always change for the worse when they start dating. and yeah, i'm saying that because my whole life, i've been a BUB.
after watching a couple of my friends get boyfriends, i've come to realize one of the mistakes i made when i was dating. did i REALLY spend all my time with that guy? treat him like he was the ONLY thing in my life? (yeah, sadly, the answer to both those questions is yes). but i guess at the time i was so blinded by "love" that i didn't care. but honestly, i guess you don't know these things til after you've dated.
so slap me if that ever happens to me again. so what does that have to do with being a BUB? well, for one, nobody likes to be one. who likes to be called to hang out just because your friend's significant other isn't there? or just cuz he's busy and she can't find anyone else to talk to b/c she lost all her friends since she started dating? catch my drift? kinda figuring out what a BUB is now?
i think i've been a BUB my whole life. i hated it. but you know what? now i'm used to it. it's not anything to be happy about. but i guess that's what happens when friends start dating and leave you in the dust. and don't get me wrong, i'm not directing this towards anyone in particular...just kinda venting about previous friendships...and my own mistakes.
i feel like because i've been around friends and their significant others so much, i'm able to see a lot of things that i don't want in a future relationship. like spending obscene amounts of time together. now really...if you're going to be married and you'll be spending the REST of your lives together, why not use the present time to spend with your friends? i never understand that. so yeah...that's one thing i don't want. if i ever date again, i'm spending time with my friends whenever i want to. they're just as important. and seirously, keep me accountable about what i'm saying right now. and drag me into an alley and slap me if i don't hold myself to it.
what's with the lovey-dovey-baby-talk? ugh. gross me out and cut my ears off. seriously. i find it annoying and just EEEEEEEEEEEK. i can hear it in my head right now, and i'm eeking cuz it's so eww. just cut it out. i personally think it sickens the people around you. (and once again, i dont' even know who i'm talking to while i'm writing this...just random thoughts about things i learned from observing other people's relationships). and even if there is no baby voice, there's still this pleading-i'm-a-little-girl/boy-so-just-say-okay tone of voice that is used.
i'm not a beggar. and even if it's something that i want to beg about, i don't send my baby voice in to help me. i'm freakin' 23 years old. i dont' wear diapers nor do i pretend i have pigtails with bows in them. same with you.
alright. now enough about relationships.
SECOND PART of the SECOND PART of RANDOM THOUGHTS
well i guess i kinda already talked about friendships in the previous section. (the BUB part...and if you still dont' know what that is, just ask me). but i guess this section is for those people who can relate to what i'm talking about...
i think growing up, i've always been a good listener. is that a spiritual gift? haha. who knows. well anyway, i'm a good listener. i know that. my friends know that. so my whole life i've basically been this huge EAR to everyone around me. which of course, i never mind b/c hey, that's what friends are for. to listen, pray, or give suggestions.
but don't ears sometimes want to be mouths too? i mean, we do all the listening, but when it comes our time to find an ear to hear, everyone's turned deaf. and all of a sudden you're this mute mouth. you make sounds, but no one hears you.
i've known less than a handful of people who know what i'm talking about, or can truly relate to me. right now, i still don't mind it. i'm always there to listen when friends have something to share or just want to babble. but are you going to listen to me babble and share when i need it? (i suppose that's what this journal is for...so you don't actually have to hear me talk..haha. :)
do you know people who are like that? or maybe it's the friend that you always share stuff with, but have suddenly realized that they don't share much with you. are you even listening to them when they want to share? do you even KNOW that they want to share? you gotta look out for your friends that are like that.
like i said in the past entry...you may think you KNOW someone, but when it comes down to it, do you really know them? i'm an easy person to read, but just because you can read me, doesn't mean you know what exactly i'm thinking or how i'm feeling. cuz readings can be inaccurate, or fake. know what i mean? everyone can play off feelings. especially those people who spent their whole lives doing the listneing instead of the talking.
i know there's a lot of people like that out there. i'm sure you know people like that in your circle of friends. spend time in getting to truly know them. the thing with people these days is that we think we're too busy for that. we're not. if we were, i woulnd't be here typing in my journal. if we were too busy for it, we woulnd't be online chatting when we could be chatting in person. that's quality time. friendships take work...are you willing to put time into it?
it's 11:30pm, and i'm tired. it's been a long day. i would seriously rather be talking than typing. but...this is my only means of communication with some people b/c we're all too busy. so the only way you know of anything going on in my mind is by reading my online journal, which, i might add, is available to the rest of the world to read. hmmmmm.
once again, i am a random person. my mind thinks about the weirdest things. once during bible study, i stated that i probably thinka bout ten different things in 30 seconds. i wasn't lying. that's how random i am. hahaa. i say what i think, and there's all there is to it. wow, something else you just learned about me if you didn't already know.
speaking of which...
my legs really itch right now. the only thing i hate about cold weather is that it makes your skin dry, which makes it itchy. i need lotion.
the glass in my arm is really starting to hurt. and now it's a huge bump. i look like i have a second elbow. (btw, that's the minor surgery i might be having). i need to see the doctor. hoo-ah.
BOOK IS ME
okay i dont even know what that means. bad grammar. anyway, i was talking to jana tonighta bout writing a book. i've wanted to write a book about random thoughts for a long time...but if i really did, the only people who'd want to read it are people i know. and even THAT is a maybe. haha. some people find my randomness comical. others find it insightful. others find that i must really be bored. perhaps. we'll see.