on returning
truth be told, i've been feeling kind of gloomy at the prospect of heading back to pittsburgh. part of it is some sort of existential-like "what do i do with myself now?" aimlessness, part of it is anxiety at starting "my own" research again (in contrast with having rust work around me at all times), and part of it is apprehensiveness at being flooded with chores to do all the time (i have the maybe-totally-wrong sense that i had a ton more stuff to take care of in pittsburgh than here).
anyway, i also have some hopes for things to do when i get back:
- get back on some sort of regular exercise schedule. it occurred to me that maybe instead of needing the rule "i must do X every Y often", which gets dull and stressful very fast, i need "every time i do X, i get reward Y". maybe i can use this for meditation too.
- taking a day off every week - to be filled with housekeeping, cooking, hacking, anything away from whatever the rest of the week was like.
- making stuff out of this book, perhaps once every week if i am good to myself.
- making good friends with new housemates.
- and, well, find some activity to do on-and-off that i didn't do last year. this thought is inspired by how surprisingly refreshing it was to play magic: the gathering several times this summer - something well in my interests that for some reason i hadn't paid any attention to in a while. if anybody has something interesting they want to suck me into, i will probably be game.
hmmm
i still have two research blog posts to write about my work on rust. i remember the first time i heard the word "blog": i was playing scrabble and could not believe that it was a real portmanteau that people actually said. abrupt post ending!
anyway, i also have some hopes for things to do when i get back:
- get back on some sort of regular exercise schedule. it occurred to me that maybe instead of needing the rule "i must do X every Y often", which gets dull and stressful very fast, i need "every time i do X, i get reward Y". maybe i can use this for meditation too.
- taking a day off every week - to be filled with housekeeping, cooking, hacking, anything away from whatever the rest of the week was like.
- making stuff out of this book, perhaps once every week if i am good to myself.
- making good friends with new housemates.
- and, well, find some activity to do on-and-off that i didn't do last year. this thought is inspired by how surprisingly refreshing it was to play magic: the gathering several times this summer - something well in my interests that for some reason i hadn't paid any attention to in a while. if anybody has something interesting they want to suck me into, i will probably be game.
hmmm
i still have two research blog posts to write about my work on rust. i remember the first time i heard the word "blog": i was playing scrabble and could not believe that it was a real portmanteau that people actually said. abrupt post ending!