missing something... casual?
laura and i were chatting about her pseudo-boyfriend yesterday morning
(gee... laura and i were talking about boys... big surprise)
but this conversation actually got me thinking
a lot
she was telling me about the guy she's been seeing, and how she refuses to actually start a relationship before she goes away to school. she wants to start at school with a clean slate. no messing with far-away attachments.
but, anyway, she's kinda casually dating this guy. and she's flirting with other guys. and whatnot. but no commitment. no titles. no attachments.
i started thinking about myself.
i've never "dated".
i've seriously never been on just a "date".
you know, a one-on-one outing with semi-romantic intentions, but no expectations, no commitments, no major cares.
never.
i've always been a committed person.
even before i am actually in a committed relationship with someone, i commit myself.
the one time i was actually asked on a "date" was when i already had my eyes set on zack. afraid of what could happen, i clearly defined the outing as "not a date".
lame.
ridiculous.
and with both zack and jon, there was never a date before there was a relationship.
the thing that really just makes me wonder, though, is...
have i missed out on something?
i've always been looking for a relationship
but...
maybe something more casual would be a better place to start
you know... a date
...not that i've had any offers or anything...
but it's a thought.