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Haven't posted on here in a while.
About 40 minutes ago, or something like that, I awoke in a panic, feeling incredibly tense and frightened. I kind of wondered if I was losing my head.
A lot of heavy fucking shit has been going down lately, and I think I'm just overloaded right now. And I'm trying to sleep in a place where I don't feel very comfortable.
I've been waiting for a good time for a complete meltdown, where I cry like a baby into someone's arms. I could go for something like that. Sometimes I feel so frightened by things that I need someone's arms to catch me. I'm trying to reconcile with a lot here. My self, my past, my childhood, my future. It's a little too much for my brain.
Sometimes I feel strong; sometimes I feel like the weakest person in the world.
I feel like for the first time, I'm really on my own, and this is a sink or swim situation.
I know I will get through. I always do, and my strength will impress even me. That's how I feel so far. But I have these moments where I feel like I'm falling apart at the seams.
You gotta have your moment to cry every once in a while. Otherwise, you'll never make it.
About 40 minutes ago, or something like that, I awoke in a panic, feeling incredibly tense and frightened. I kind of wondered if I was losing my head.
A lot of heavy fucking shit has been going down lately, and I think I'm just overloaded right now. And I'm trying to sleep in a place where I don't feel very comfortable.
I've been waiting for a good time for a complete meltdown, where I cry like a baby into someone's arms. I could go for something like that. Sometimes I feel so frightened by things that I need someone's arms to catch me. I'm trying to reconcile with a lot here. My self, my past, my childhood, my future. It's a little too much for my brain.
Sometimes I feel strong; sometimes I feel like the weakest person in the world.
I feel like for the first time, I'm really on my own, and this is a sink or swim situation.
I know I will get through. I always do, and my strength will impress even me. That's how I feel so far. But I have these moments where I feel like I'm falling apart at the seams.
You gotta have your moment to cry every once in a while. Otherwise, you'll never make it.