I'm wicked lame
i used to drink. well, not a lot but enough. in fact ive only been drunk once. i guess i should just get to the point. i never understood the idea of drinking. i mean why do people do it? having done it myself, i still don't see why. yeah maybe you get some kicks out of it, but a majority of the time, a person ends up getting hurt physically or mentally. i mean, i havent touched the stuff for a good maybe since late october, maybe late september. i can't remember exactly. look, i know it was only a short time ago i made the pact with myself that i would give it up, but still. it doesnt answer my question. why? i guess i am just that lame, like my cousin told me. She's 24...i think. anyways, like ive seen bad cases and heard bad cases occuring due to the effects of alcohol. i mean, don't people realize that people die almost every other day, if not everyday, because of drunk driving or something relating to alcohol.
now that i think of it, i'm not really quite sure why i started this rant. but i figured it would be a good one, if not interesting at the very least. hmm...might have been the tv actually. its all over the place now. people drinking socially and not. either way, why do it? so you can look cool? to retain your membership as part of an elite group of people who drink. to drown your sorrows away? escape? never really thought hard on that idea. i don't know why. i should have though. i'm not the only one with a problem in their head. although, im the only one i admit that too. oh, and one other person. that's besides the point.
i'll be 21 in like almost 4 months, may 27th to be exact. and well...wait, make that 5 months. back to my thought. i was also thinking about what i was going to be doing for my 21st. i remember back in the day i was like, "oh man, im gonna get shit faced!" and all that jazz, but now, i don't really have much planned. so i'm a loser, right? ::sigh:: i think i'm going to be the only one in the world who will be sitting on his ass for his 21st without any kind of alcohol in his hand. maybe a can of coke or a glass of water. thats it.
another thing. is it bad when i feel uneasy to those who are close to me that drink. well, i mean, when they are in the process of drinking. i mean, other times, im okay with it, knowing they do it is one thing, knowing that they are doing it right now as we speak, ....is another. bleh. i should just dig my hole up again, and bury myself in it. i like to think of it more as if i just really really care for them and don't want to see them hurt. that's the god to honest truth, but it's also cause im a lame ass. haha. man, i think i'm done rambling about this for now. peace out cub scouts.
now that i think of it, i'm not really quite sure why i started this rant. but i figured it would be a good one, if not interesting at the very least. hmm...might have been the tv actually. its all over the place now. people drinking socially and not. either way, why do it? so you can look cool? to retain your membership as part of an elite group of people who drink. to drown your sorrows away? escape? never really thought hard on that idea. i don't know why. i should have though. i'm not the only one with a problem in their head. although, im the only one i admit that too. oh, and one other person. that's besides the point.
i'll be 21 in like almost 4 months, may 27th to be exact. and well...wait, make that 5 months. back to my thought. i was also thinking about what i was going to be doing for my 21st. i remember back in the day i was like, "oh man, im gonna get shit faced!" and all that jazz, but now, i don't really have much planned. so i'm a loser, right? ::sigh:: i think i'm going to be the only one in the world who will be sitting on his ass for his 21st without any kind of alcohol in his hand. maybe a can of coke or a glass of water. thats it.
another thing. is it bad when i feel uneasy to those who are close to me that drink. well, i mean, when they are in the process of drinking. i mean, other times, im okay with it, knowing they do it is one thing, knowing that they are doing it right now as we speak, ....is another. bleh. i should just dig my hole up again, and bury myself in it. i like to think of it more as if i just really really care for them and don't want to see them hurt. that's the god to honest truth, but it's also cause im a lame ass. haha. man, i think i'm done rambling about this for now. peace out cub scouts.