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well its been a few days since ive been to this .i have a few things i would like to say.things were getting better.but i read some things and now im falling down again.shit sucks.my heart hurts and i wanna cry but i wont...i cant...to many side affects...i shall never give in to my feelings or give anyone a chance to get that far into my heart,i have decided to turn cold on the thought of love...fuck thAT shit!!!!!man,or woman,theres a shield of protection,,,,i wish i could find one person in this world who was real...and not full of shit..i want to scream goddamn it!!!im fulll of emotions and thoughts.i seen this things on national geographics yesterday...about things people do,like scarifacation,hooks and shit like that...somew pretty fucking graphic shit...im seriously considering some wicked shit like that...i could handle it,,,i wanna feeel it.i wanna live it,,,time for change.i will change.
another thing..i need to get the fuck off this island..i hate it here.goooooodddamnit!!!i hate this place...i wanna smoke so fucking bad....i cant wait till the end of this month...maybe becka,IF SHE HASNT FORGOTTEN MY BITCH ASS willl come pick me up and i can have a fucking brake before i seriously lose my goddamn mind.the balck here treat me like the nigger.80% of them hate on me.im the minority...black folks in the houdton area,where id rather be are friendly as hell..nice...theres no body here i can relate to.atleast that i havnt found yet...i feel this urge to lash out,,i dont know if i wanna lash out at myself or what...fuck all you mutha fuckers who insist onfucking with people.stop and listen to what you say to people.talk shit peace out
another thing..i need to get the fuck off this island..i hate it here.goooooodddamnit!!!i hate this place...i wanna smoke so fucking bad....i cant wait till the end of this month...maybe becka,IF SHE HASNT FORGOTTEN MY BITCH ASS willl come pick me up and i can have a fucking brake before i seriously lose my goddamn mind.the balck here treat me like the nigger.80% of them hate on me.im the minority...black folks in the houdton area,where id rather be are friendly as hell..nice...theres no body here i can relate to.atleast that i havnt found yet...i feel this urge to lash out,,i dont know if i wanna lash out at myself or what...fuck all you mutha fuckers who insist onfucking with people.stop and listen to what you say to people.talk shit peace out