well it been about a week or so..im glad i get to write some crap down.this past thursday i was addmitted into the hospital to have a "special precideur" done on my head...they stuck a tube through my "groin" that went all the way to my neck...then they shot through some iodine to my brain three different times and it was kinda painfull..but they ( Read more... )

if its not one thing its another...im still sick...only with something new..i dont know whats wrong with me but on thursday i have to be addmitted in the hospital to do some kind of test on my brain....i just wanna be normal....

im so lonely...trevor has left again..now i have know one here to talk to...im all alone now...what a bitch!i wish i could meet some people like me...well i have discovered this new website where you can meet people with an alternative "sex" life...the kind of people who like the bondage fantasy type of thing...i find my self very interested.i ( Read more... )

i wrote this once already....it didnt work....i dont know whats come over me...it feels like my viens are pumping battery acid...i have all kinds of energy.but emotionally i feel like shit...my brain is on ice...im lonely...i need a companion.i dont feel the love...not like i ever do anyway.im simply and eagerly waiting for a response.yes is what ( Read more... )

well,its been a while.....i had a nerve racking past few days....a friend of mine trevor overdosed on morphine on thursday...io had a gut feeling to go over to where he was cause he hadnt came by...when i got there they tried to wake hhim up,but they said he wasnt moving.he was passed out..i thought well i know hell wake up if i go in there.he ( Read more... )

havnt been up to much...went to the doctor yesterday only to find out that my body is on a sure way to recovery..i have a new medicine now and its possed to make shit all better.out with the old...the old was causing my heart rate to drop to a dangerous level so he insisted that i stop taking it...so i have...now i wait till i get the new medicine ( Read more... )

slow....this week sucks ( Read more... )

she seemed dressed in all of me,stretched acroos my shame ( Read more... )

ok...saturday was probly the best day out of the whole week...i got drunk and smoked a couple blunts...yea!i finnaly talked to becka...shes back home now...i still miss her but you know...she cant really make out here...soon hopefully.other then that everything is going slow motion...im gone now...

sometimes i feel like i hate my fucking grandma!!!shes being a fucking bitch!i want to get my money so i can hurry and get the fuck away from her.she pisses me off...and i cant really do shit about it.shes in "control".god damn her....i woke up in an alright mood then she has to get all power trip happy and i dont fucking like that kinda shit..i ( Read more... )