a long boring day

[brokenfaite]

well its been like a week ...so im here now to tell the tell of my days..to me it seems as if i stay still while the world spins around me a million times....my friend becka came to see me wednesday night i think...i was sooo happy to see her.someone,yet anyone...just to chill was great cuz i was with people..i was sad to see her go.her guy friend ryan was with her.hes cool..they smoked a pinner with me and i got to smoke a ciggarette..first time for me to smoke since the 4th of july so i got pretty baked.they did a spell.i was apart...it was my real first time thing...the feeling i got what hard to explain..they tryed to compare it to sex but nah...not even to me.it was very peacefull.tons of energy from the right for thats my odly comfort of happiness...new energy from the left.then we all tryed to fill these tiny viles with our blood..i was succesfull in the doing.mine is full of pure blood,not a mix of water.just my blood...that i will keep for long time..i feel so alone....there is no one around here that i would choose to asociate with...theres some homeless people,and some cracked out ghetto niggers.
come to found out today,my x-roomate/x-punk boyfriend has been ran out of pasadena...somebody put a gun to his face and told him he better leave.lol.in a way i wish they would have shot his dick off.lmfao...so now hes shacked up back in galveston with his ex gay lover myra.what a worm dick.
well im gonna end this...backa if you read this i miss you.please dont forget me...come see me....come talk shit fuckers...