Stolen from friends
20 years ago: I was 9, so would possibly have just moved to Magor VAP school where I learnt to look my teachers in the face. And that there were genuine people in the world.
10 years ago: I would have been 19, doing my last year in uni. Going out with a guy who was sent to prison after I started seeing him. Then I did something which I am sure is the reason my Karma has been shit for these past few years. As he got more into the idea of moving in with me when he got out I ran away and off with someone else and didn't tell him till he came out. This is one oth the most shit things I have done to someone and I can still see the look on his face when I told him. My wonderful friend was being overrun with cancer and I was crying for her more than she would have liked. She gave birth to David just after Christmas, and had passed away by the beginning of summer. I miss her, all the time.
5 years ago: I think I'd just just moved up to Northampton. Wanted to get out of a downward spiral. was having alot of problems adjusting to living with Scott, I was crying every day after work as I had left a great school and had such a hard first term/ year trying to establish myself at Ise. Was looking forward to going home for the hols. This was the beginning of a long horrible time where I went quite mad and was treated really badly in an emotional sense. (And was very angry all the time).
2 years ago: I was moving from Irthlingborough where I lived with a friend and his GF into my wonderful freezing flat by the racecourse. 103 had just completed and I had real savings for the first time in my adult life! I was moving back to Northampton and it was such a promising time. I learnt that you could get so drunk you forgot stuff.
1 year ago: I had nearly done my first term whilst living in 19. was again a time of great enthusiasm. It was such a different feeling to now. I wanted to come home, I had hugs all the time. We touched and it was good.
Yesterday: watched ladyhawk, princess bride and the Addams family with Bob and later Sam. Have realised I am too old for "twuuu love" and wondered if it ever existed for me in the first place. Waiting to move, waiting to escape. Everything else in my life is so good right now. I really don't want to leave the lovely house that I found. but I am being set free and I can't do that and stay with my feet in concrete.
Today: I have an open evening in work, I thought the heating would be on as it was last week, so have dressed accordingly. My back is already cold and washing my hands is the only way to warm them up. Have also realised I have in fact wasted the last 3 years of my love life rather than the 2 I have been quoting!!
Tomorrow: Will be going to aerobics, then doing a bit of packing, possibly loading my car in order to drop off some more of my stuff after work the next day.
10 years ago: I would have been 19, doing my last year in uni. Going out with a guy who was sent to prison after I started seeing him. Then I did something which I am sure is the reason my Karma has been shit for these past few years. As he got more into the idea of moving in with me when he got out I ran away and off with someone else and didn't tell him till he came out. This is one oth the most shit things I have done to someone and I can still see the look on his face when I told him. My wonderful friend was being overrun with cancer and I was crying for her more than she would have liked. She gave birth to David just after Christmas, and had passed away by the beginning of summer. I miss her, all the time.
5 years ago: I think I'd just just moved up to Northampton. Wanted to get out of a downward spiral. was having alot of problems adjusting to living with Scott, I was crying every day after work as I had left a great school and had such a hard first term/ year trying to establish myself at Ise. Was looking forward to going home for the hols. This was the beginning of a long horrible time where I went quite mad and was treated really badly in an emotional sense. (And was very angry all the time).
2 years ago: I was moving from Irthlingborough where I lived with a friend and his GF into my wonderful freezing flat by the racecourse. 103 had just completed and I had real savings for the first time in my adult life! I was moving back to Northampton and it was such a promising time. I learnt that you could get so drunk you forgot stuff.
1 year ago: I had nearly done my first term whilst living in 19. was again a time of great enthusiasm. It was such a different feeling to now. I wanted to come home, I had hugs all the time. We touched and it was good.
Yesterday: watched ladyhawk, princess bride and the Addams family with Bob and later Sam. Have realised I am too old for "twuuu love" and wondered if it ever existed for me in the first place. Waiting to move, waiting to escape. Everything else in my life is so good right now. I really don't want to leave the lovely house that I found. but I am being set free and I can't do that and stay with my feet in concrete.
Today: I have an open evening in work, I thought the heating would be on as it was last week, so have dressed accordingly. My back is already cold and washing my hands is the only way to warm them up. Have also realised I have in fact wasted the last 3 years of my love life rather than the 2 I have been quoting!!
Tomorrow: Will be going to aerobics, then doing a bit of packing, possibly loading my car in order to drop off some more of my stuff after work the next day.