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Well I don't really feel like typing too much today.. I'm so exhausted! I just finished plyos and I'm about to go lift in the gym.. then I have individual sprints tonight with coach. AHH! But I feel so good.
Tuesday night I was hanging out in Kelly's room.. and MattM was in there. He kept smiling at me and I was like hmm.. So everyone was watching Elf and I didn't feel like it, so I went to leave, and MattM followed. We came up to my room and decided to watch Old School. We were laying in my bed and he had his arm around me.. it was cute. Matt called while he was there and asked what I was doing; I told him watching a movie and he asked me to come down to his room. I told him no, and hung up on him. =P MattM continued watching the movie and he kept saying really sweet things like "you smell so good" and he even said that there wasn't a flaw about me. The thing was, he sounded so genuine. Still, I couldn't help but shake my head no and burry my face in his chest. We ended up kissing.. and he says I'm a fun kisser, lol. He asked me to come down to his room to watch t.v. when my roommate came in, but I told him I should just go to sleep.
Matt called around 2am and said he had just finished watching Alfie (that new movie with Jude Law, about a guy who has a bunch of girlfriends, but one ends up catching his heart, etc.. you get the jist). He said it made him change his perspective on things, then apologized over and over for kissing that other girl. He said he screwed up, and realized how much he missed me and whatever else.. I just kept saying, "It's a little too late, Matt.." I hung up on him and he called back, singing some song about being sorry or something. Though I admit it was cute, it was a bit rehearsed and not at all genuine, so I just said goodnight.
Yesterday I went to class.. then went to the store with my old roommate. When I came back, Matt called and asked me to go down to his room, so I did.. I had nothing better to do. I really, really am into him but I really don't want to be because I refuse to be walked on like before. So before anything could happen I left. I began making these shirts for us to wear to the guys' soccer game this weekend. Then we had a team timed mile; I cut almost 20 seconds off my time from last week, which I was pretty excited about; I even passed some of our better runners. 7:07.. my goal is 6:45.
I came back, showered.. yada yada yada. I IMed MattM and asked if we could watch The Incredibles, since his roommate has it on bootleg, and he said to come down to his room. I put my away message up, and Matt called me almost immediately, asking what I was doing. I told him I was going to watch a movie with MattM (he already knew.. it was on my away message). He said, "Yeah, that's what I thought. Who goes to a guy's room at 1 in the morning to watch a movie?" I said, "Me, I guess.." he said, "Oh, and you think nothing's going to happen?" I said, "Matt.. how do you compare the two? I'm weird for watching a movie with a guy, but you're justified for making out with a girl? It doesn't add up, Matt. Besides, SOME people can practice self control." He didn't have a rebuttal to that, but begged me to come down to his room. I said, "Sorry Matt, I have plans.." I got to MattM's room and went to hang up with Matt and he's like, "Well I'm coming down to MattM's room." I said, "Uhm, yeah, you do that. That'd be pretty stupid of you." I hung up because MattM opened the door.
We watched The Incredibles and cuddled on the couch. We were kissing and his hands were wandering, but I kept pushing them up or down (depending on what region I was trying to avoid his hands from being around). I was so proud of myself.. I was so good. I told him sorry, but that I had to go; mostly because I was tired, but also because I didn't want to be tempted. So we parted ways.
Today I slept till 10, went to plyos at 11.. then ate lunch. Eric sat with me.. he's such a charming fellow. I mean, his eyes.. they're amazing. We talked for like an hour.. and I sorta invited him to a movie next week. I asked if he'd like to see Alexander (COLIN FERRAL!!) and he said yes, and I said, "Well, we should see it." He smiles and nodded, so I *think* that means we will.
Well, I must go lift now. :)
Tuesday night I was hanging out in Kelly's room.. and MattM was in there. He kept smiling at me and I was like hmm.. So everyone was watching Elf and I didn't feel like it, so I went to leave, and MattM followed. We came up to my room and decided to watch Old School. We were laying in my bed and he had his arm around me.. it was cute. Matt called while he was there and asked what I was doing; I told him watching a movie and he asked me to come down to his room. I told him no, and hung up on him. =P MattM continued watching the movie and he kept saying really sweet things like "you smell so good" and he even said that there wasn't a flaw about me. The thing was, he sounded so genuine. Still, I couldn't help but shake my head no and burry my face in his chest. We ended up kissing.. and he says I'm a fun kisser, lol. He asked me to come down to his room to watch t.v. when my roommate came in, but I told him I should just go to sleep.
Matt called around 2am and said he had just finished watching Alfie (that new movie with Jude Law, about a guy who has a bunch of girlfriends, but one ends up catching his heart, etc.. you get the jist). He said it made him change his perspective on things, then apologized over and over for kissing that other girl. He said he screwed up, and realized how much he missed me and whatever else.. I just kept saying, "It's a little too late, Matt.." I hung up on him and he called back, singing some song about being sorry or something. Though I admit it was cute, it was a bit rehearsed and not at all genuine, so I just said goodnight.
Yesterday I went to class.. then went to the store with my old roommate. When I came back, Matt called and asked me to go down to his room, so I did.. I had nothing better to do. I really, really am into him but I really don't want to be because I refuse to be walked on like before. So before anything could happen I left. I began making these shirts for us to wear to the guys' soccer game this weekend. Then we had a team timed mile; I cut almost 20 seconds off my time from last week, which I was pretty excited about; I even passed some of our better runners. 7:07.. my goal is 6:45.
I came back, showered.. yada yada yada. I IMed MattM and asked if we could watch The Incredibles, since his roommate has it on bootleg, and he said to come down to his room. I put my away message up, and Matt called me almost immediately, asking what I was doing. I told him I was going to watch a movie with MattM (he already knew.. it was on my away message). He said, "Yeah, that's what I thought. Who goes to a guy's room at 1 in the morning to watch a movie?" I said, "Me, I guess.." he said, "Oh, and you think nothing's going to happen?" I said, "Matt.. how do you compare the two? I'm weird for watching a movie with a guy, but you're justified for making out with a girl? It doesn't add up, Matt. Besides, SOME people can practice self control." He didn't have a rebuttal to that, but begged me to come down to his room. I said, "Sorry Matt, I have plans.." I got to MattM's room and went to hang up with Matt and he's like, "Well I'm coming down to MattM's room." I said, "Uhm, yeah, you do that. That'd be pretty stupid of you." I hung up because MattM opened the door.
We watched The Incredibles and cuddled on the couch. We were kissing and his hands were wandering, but I kept pushing them up or down (depending on what region I was trying to avoid his hands from being around). I was so proud of myself.. I was so good. I told him sorry, but that I had to go; mostly because I was tired, but also because I didn't want to be tempted. So we parted ways.
Today I slept till 10, went to plyos at 11.. then ate lunch. Eric sat with me.. he's such a charming fellow. I mean, his eyes.. they're amazing. We talked for like an hour.. and I sorta invited him to a movie next week. I asked if he'd like to see Alexander (COLIN FERRAL!!) and he said yes, and I said, "Well, we should see it." He smiles and nodded, so I *think* that means we will.
Well, I must go lift now. :)