I feel so dumb writing in this thing... its been almost a year since i last did and guess what.... i'm back right where i was. Apparently I haven't grown up much in the last year. I was in love with him and i still am.... why?... Why can't I shake this feeling that he's the one i'm supposed to be with? He's awful... he breaks my heart every ( Read more... )

*Sigh.... I don't know what's wrong... I'm just so sad lately... I think I just really miss Lisa... and I think I'm realizing how hard it is to be safe as you grow up. I can't rely on my parents anymore.... Lisa can't protect me.... My nightmares get worse every night... My grades are slipping... I just need.... idk what I need. I suppose I just ( Read more... )

I just want to be alright. I want to be alright with the rape scene. I want to be alright if a boy wants to touch me. I don't want to have this constant fear that something is going to happen to me or that the boy is gonna see a scar and think I'm disgusting but Frankie's right. I'm damged Goods.

Why does love have to hurt so goddamn much??.... Why can't it just be - OH your in love everything is wonderful... and it always is like that at first but not for long enough. Yesterday was Christmas and my boyfriend picked a fight with me just like he has done every time we've spoken since we got back together. If he resents me so much for the ( Read more... )

UMMMM so let's see... I already had one of these but it was so digustingly emo that I just decided to start over. If you really want to see it my username was LithiumAddict33- i don't want to even discuss it. Ummm I'm in a play called the Wrestling Season which is turning out to be my own personal hell. I have a boyfriend who I love very very much ( Read more... )