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I realized today....one of the things i don't like about my job is that my work is NEVER done. I mean...NEVER. You work your ass off to finish something and then by the time you finish, more has already piled up. I feel so unmotived to work because I never get the satisfaction that I've FINISHED something. It's kind of like the horse and a the carrot on a fishing pole thing. Some people just focus on the carrot and don't notice that they aren't going anywhere. I hate the feeling of working my ass of just to realize that i haven't made any progress. Today Yvonne asked me to do a powerpoint presentation for her. I felt so satified to look at the presentation when i finished and actually realize that i had finished something. I worked 10 hours today but i was so energized when i left because i had accomplished something. I try to remind myself that my job not being done is job security. But it's just not working for me. This weekend i spent 3 hours scheduling all of our physical exams. Within 30 minutes of sending out the appointment notifications I already had 10 people tell me they couldn't make the appointments I made for them. This entire week i've spend all my time rescheduling people...what the hell people? Can't you just do what you are told??? I just about lost it with a woman today who told me she wanted to reschedule her appointment for later in the month because she started a new diet and doesn't want to get on the scale. Gee woman there is a simple fucking solution, DON'T LOOK AT THE SCALE WHEN WE WEIGH YOU!!! gee what a concept. They need to pay me more. ;-)