I hate that I have been cleaning and packing my room since like 1:00 this morning its now 2:30 becasue I cant sleep because he broke his promise to me and didnt call. because i know something is wrong this time and he didnt fall asleep early because i know he is avoiding me and i hate that i am wide awake and so fucking tired at the same time and ( Read more... )

For the readers of my journal this entry is for you. Keys words in that sentence...MY JOURNAL. Aside from this entry my journal is not written for you. I don't care that you read it, but thats not why I wrtie it. I write it because I need somewhere to let steam off my chest. Yes maybe when I have a problem your suggestions are helpful or when ( Read more... )

I GOT OL!!!!! I AM SOOOOOOO FRICKEN EXCITED!!!!!! CAN'T WAIT TILL MAY 23RD!!!!!!!

Wat if my life my world didn't revolve around him? What if he wasnt the center of my universe? Would it be so bad? I'm not the center of his...why should he be the center of mine?....Becasue I'm one of those stupid girls and I can't make it not that way....But wat if I could...wat if suddenly he wasnt IT

Every week I eat less and less food uts not a concious decision, it's not like I conciously say I don't want to eat. Quite the opposite actually...I want to eat I just can't bring myself to...I lack the desire...if that makes any sense...kinda contradictory I know....I go I get my food and then I only eat about half of it...my hunger hasnt ceased.. ( Read more... )

heres to probably the worst springfest in history....lets hope next year things go back to normal

itchy totally freaking out wtf?! i hope hes okay this just isnt right something has to be wrong........

The only way ( Read more... )

there is not a single thing in my life that I do for me...to make myself happy. everything i do is for him or my mother. to make THEM happy to make THEM proud i do so much to be the persopn THEY especially HIM love im not even sure if that person is real im not sure that i exist i dont even know who i am anymore ive lost kristy

Oprah says doubt is God's way of telling us no don't do it, don't but it, ect... Part of me really thinks shes right...I mean if it were important, if it were nesscisary, if it were good enough we'd be 100% positive right? I mean if we have to question something and we have doubts about it, if we can picture our life without it then it must be ( Read more... )