so tired
I hate that I have been cleaning and packing my room since like 1:00 this morning its now 2:30 becasue I cant sleep because he broke his promise to me and didnt call. because i know something is wrong this time and he didnt fall asleep early because i know he is avoiding me and i hate that i am wide awake and so fucking tired at the same time and that i know the second i try to go to sleep what tired there is will dissappear i hate that i wont sleep tonight i hate that there is nothing left for me to clean or pack and that i have nothing to occupy the rest of my morning no more books to read either...i finished them all no movies to watch...i sent them all home...nothing on tv.....sick and tried of the internet....all i want to do is hear is voice so i can go to slepp but thats not gonna happen so heres to a night/morning of pure agony cross your fingers thats not all that bad and everything will b fine when i would be waking up in the morning if i had gone to sleep