A month ago, I put my cat down ( Read more... )

last i posted, i wrote of the grief, the empty spot left from letting go of my first love. after letting things settle for what, a hundred days? i will relate what caused that feeling ( Read more... )

Grief can be loud, or quiet. Today, it's very quiet, but hurts just as much.

I've finally accepted the loss of my first love. 30 years on, that spot is now empty. And quiet. The silence of death.

I'm sure I'll write about the details, and consequences later, but for now, it's just an empty ache.

I talked with a grief counselor on Monday about my continued grief, no other word works, for the loss of my first GF.  I wanted to know how to remember the magic, but allow the grief to fade.  He suggested I use an artistic medium to separate them.  I started writing haiku about the time she and I quit seeing each other.  I don't have any of those ( Read more... )

Yesterday the horoscope talked about letting go, and I didn't know what it was talking about.  Today, I think I just let go of a grief I have been carrying nearly 30 years, and the emotion chip has been going nuts ( Read more... )