Faraway, But So Close (Adam/Kris, misc pairings) Rated: R
Title: Faraway, But So Close (Chapter Twelve)
Author: xrazorbladesky and georgeegurl
Pairings/Character(s): Adam/Kris, Adam/Gabriel.
Warnings:Domestic violence, self-injury, character death(main character), suicide, Supernatural beings, major depression, alcoholism.(Highlight to read)
Rating: R
Words: 3,737
Summary: After being away for almost five years, Allison returns home.
Notes: Please read with care! Some warnings happen off-screen, but it doesn’t hurt to warn for them anyways.
April 30th, 2016
The ring of the doorbell was what sent Kris springing up off of the couch. Of course, Lux then started to bark. Every time the freaking door bell rang or she heard something. Kris thought about letting her live with Katy again, but maybe he needed her just as much as she needed him.
Falling asleep on the couch was probably not the best idea. Kinks in your neck that didn’t allow you to look up were the worst feeling. But that wasn’t saying that he didn’t have a comfortable couch. That was what got him to sleep in the first place. Turning the television on and kicking off his shows and watching CNN. He didn’t even make it past the first commercial before he dozed off. He felt exhausted and he really hadn’t done anything all day. Just sitting around made him tired. How could that happen? The answer, he didn’t really known. It just simply happened.
A yawn came from his mouth as his hand moved through his hair. Even with an hour or so nap, he still felt tired.
When he got to the door, Lux was sitting there clawing at it. He should invent something that helps a dog talk and answers doors. He’d make millions.
He reached up and slowly opened the door. The first thing that hit his eyes was the color black. Then a little laugh as arms outstretched and pulled him in for a hug. “Dude, I missed you so much.” Allison Iraheta. Just like that, he was pushed back a little so she could move into the house. “Katy? Adam? Where are you guys? You better get your butts in here!”
Kris said as he closed the door and stared at her, his mouth hanging open before it closed. He couldn’t believe that the girl was standing before him. “What are doing?”
“I know you’re here! You have to be here, dudes. I go away to SA for a few years and you’re not happy to see me when I come back?” When there was no answer, she turned around to face Kris. “What’s up, man?”
For the last few years she had been in South Africa. Something about teaching kids education with music. Kris didn’t really understand it. When she had told them, Katy, Adam, and Kris, they all thought it was a great opportunity. Not only was it soaking up another culture but it was teaching children important lessons while using songs. No one lost in that situation. Kris didn’t think it would be for five years. She must have really liked it. More power to her for finding something she liked to do. It was uncommon among many. Even he was kind of iffy about what his passions were nowadays.
“Oh c’mon,” She said, “You aren’t like, mad at me because I couldn’t call you right? I couldn’t really call anyone besides my parents. And I wrote letters. They came back to me most of the time.”
Kris sighed. She really had been disconnected from the world. She didn’t know anything that had happened in the past few years. How could her parents not of told her? They probably didn’t want to upset her. But it seemed so unfair. She was going to come home to the states and would read all about what went on and have a break down.
“Kris, what’s going on?”
“We need to talk, Alli.” He said softly.
“Okay.”
The two of them walked into his living room. Allison sat down on the couch, looking around the room. Katy’s stuff was gone. The pictures of them were still up, but her favorite blanket wasn’t across the back of the chair, some of her favorite nicknacks were gone from the shelves. “Did you redecorate?”
Kris shook his head. “Katy and I...we got a divorce a few years ago. It wasn’t too long after you left that things didn’t work out between us.”
“That’s crazy.” Allison said. “You two were perfect. To be honest, I thought you would have a baby by now. At least now you and Adam can get together,” she joked.
Kris looked away from her. Adam and him together? It was never going to happen. Not with Gabriel constantly having his attention. “Have you seen anyone else besides me?”
“Nope. You, bro are my first stop. Though, the first thing that I did when I got my phone was text Tommy. But it wouldn’t be a surprise if he changed his number. It’s been awhile.”
“Yeah. You’ve missed a lot.”
“Oh have I? Tell me. Have you finally realized that that love of your life was standing in front of you the whole time? Has he finally stopped puppying around waiting for you and finally told you that he liked you? Or did you do that part? “
“You missed a lot,” he repeated.
Allison laughed. “I’m trying to get you to fill me in here. Fill me in! Fill me in! ”
Kris looked down. It had to be the hardest thing he’d have to do. Allison was close to Adam. If anything, treated him exactly like she would her brother. She would take it hard. He knew that.
“Let me guess. You and Adam are getting married or something awesome like that. I must have came back at the right time. That’s excited. I knew Adam had it in him. But you...You, I was kind of spectacle of. Adam always wanted to tell you how he felt. I’m glad that he finally did.”
Kris looked up. “There’s a lot that you’ve missed. Not just between me and Katy.”
“Brad,” she nodded. “I know he’s a drama queen sometimes. Has he finally stopped making Cassidy chase him around? Or is he back with Adam? That there is a mistake waiting to happen. Brad is cool and all, but Adam can do better. Exes are exes. Friends are friends.”
“Brad is still as stupid as when you left him.”
“Then if it’s not Brad, it’s Neil. Or is it Tommy?”
“No. It’s Adam.”
“I knew it. Kris Allen and Adam Lambert are finally being sinful together.”
“Can you just shut up for a moment. I need to get this out. Just shut up. Afterward you’re not going to want to talk that much, believe me.”
Allison went quiet. Her smile, fading. “Geez.”
“Adam...A few months ago...A few months ago something happened. You wouldn’t have heard about it. And I’m kind of not surprised that your mother didn’t tell you about it. A few months ago...A few months ago...A few months...”
“Go on...”
“Adam died.”
Allison’s mouth fell open, and she stood up off the couch. “No, you’re lying. You have to be lying.”
“I wish I was -”
“No!” She screamed. “He was fine. There was nothing wrong with Adam. He couldn’t have just....died. Kris, this isn’t funny! This isn’t fucking funny at all!”
“Alli, it was an accident. No one knows how it happened.”
“Someone has to know! Who found him? Was it Brad? Tommy?”
“Gabriel.” Kris said.
“Who the fuck is Gabriel and what was he doing with Adam?!” Her eyes were filling with tears and she looked close to sobbing. Kris wasn’t ready for this, he didn’t want to deal with this again. “Was he just fucking around with this guy? Did Adam just take him home -”
“Did you really think that of him?” Kris asked.
“He’d do stupid shit when he was drinking sometimes.” Kris then remembered that Allison had gone on tour with Adam the first time, and she must have gone out partying with him. “He was so fucking love sick over you. He would try to get over it by fucking other guys. It never worked, obviously.”
“Gabriel was his partner, Allison. They were together for about three years.”
Allison’s jaw dropped. “P-Partner for three years?”
“Yes. They were together for the last three years. Adam was living with him.”
“L-Living with him?”
“Yes.”
Allison shook her head. It couldn’t be real. None of it could be real. Adam was probably hiding away just wanting to pop out saying ‘gotcha.’ Kris was a great actor. So fucking good it was unbelieveable. “Where is he? Is he hiding in your room?”
“Alli.”
“Adam can’t be fucking dead, Kris! No fucking way!”
“I’m sorry. But...”
“NO! NO. Just...Just no.” Allison’s eyes welled with tears and her whole body began to shake. Adam couldn’t be dead. Just no way. Her legs caved out and she fell to the ground. “Adam’s dead? And...And I didn’t ev-”
Kris moved over to her. “I know you were close to him. He wouldn’t want you to just sit around crying about his death. He would want you to be out in the world running around like you have been doing.”
Allison looked up, her eyes filled with tears and anger. “Oh, fuck off Kris. You just told me he’s gone. I hadn’t seen him in years and I’m....never going to again!” One of her hand pulled on her hair, the other was fiercely wiping away her tears. “Just give me some fucking time okay? Give me some time to let it sink in.”
April 30th, 2016 Part Two
Kris wasn’t sure how they ended up at the door of Tommy’s apartment. Allison wanted to see someone else besides him, so he thought Tommy was the best idea. Brad would just make smart remarks the whole time, Cassidy would glare at him, Katy would probably cry again, and even though Allison wanted to meet Gabriel, Kris refused.
He knocked on the door a few times and Sauli answered. Great, just what he needed. The Finn didn’t say anything, he just turned and let Kris in, Allison trailing behind him. Inside the living room Cassidy stood with Brad, and Tommy was curled on the couch who seemed pretty dead to the world.
“Oh, look who it is, the little heartbreaker.” Brad said, cocking his head to the side. Allison had stepped out from behind Kris, and Brad gasped. “Allison.”
Allison gave a small nod to him as she crossed her arms. “Hey.”
“Long time no see.”
“Tell me about it.”
Brad went over to her and pulled her into a hug. “It’s nice to see you.”
Another nod. “Yeah. Nice.” Allison looked over at everyone in the room. They seemed to all be staring at her. All expect Tommy. Still he hadn’t moved. Was he dead also? Her glance went back to Brad. “Is it true?”
“Is what true?” Brad asked.
“Is it true that you’re a fucking asshole. Is it true that Adam is dead you fucking jerk?”
Brad’s smile was whipped off of his face. None of his features were playful any longer. Serious. “I...”
“She’s been in Africa for a while,” Kris reminded him. “Meaning she just found out what happened.”
“Uh...”
“Yes,” Cassidy said.
“That’s great. Just great.”
“Swee -”
“That’s just fucking great. So fucking fantastic.” She shook her head. The tears didn’t fight there way to the surface and she somewhat seemed a little calmer. “Adam’s dead.”
Brad shrugged. “It happened a while ago. Everyone’s just kind of moved on from it.”
“Moved on?” She said, her head shaking. “Yeah, it fucking looks like it. I mean, look at Tommy, he’s in great shape.”
“He’s...” Cassidy looked over at Tommy, who wasn’t even reacting to his name. He was staring at something in the corner, his eyes distant and glazed over. “He’s been like this for a while, honey. We don’t...”
Allison back away from Brad, trying to get as far away from any contact as possible. “What the hell happened after I left, huh? Did you all just fall apart?”
“Alli...” Kris started.
“No! Just don’t, please. Someone just take me home. I...need my parents.” Allison felt like a child, but she wanted her mother. She wanted her mother to hold her and tell her everything was going to be okay. Not like these guys, who were suppose to be Adam’s best friends and saying they were over it. They were not over it, they were just pulling up walls to make everything seem better. Fuck the bullshit. She just couldn’t put up with any of it.
Adam Lambert died. How could they be fucking cool about that?
Cassidy stepped forward. “C’mon, I’ll take you. Brad, let’s go.”
“But -”
“Now, Brad!”
April 30th, 2016 Part Three
Tommy didn’t move. He just stayed on the couch, trying to curl farther into himself. Kris tried not to be worried, but this wasn’t normal. Sure, usually he was would be drinking and ignoring everybody. But even that kind of seemed better than being almost comatose.
Somehow he found himself making his way to the kitchen. He couldn’t just leave. Who knew what he would do than. There was many possible things that ran through Kris’ head. There was nothing to chance in any of them.
Messing around in the cabinets, he found a box of Lipton tea. Completely full and wrapped. A little laugh came from his head as he shook his head. Something Tommy would do. Buy something for some kind of reason but never open it. Even Kris had his share of times where he would do it. There had to be at least three bags of coffee waiting to be brewed.
He walked over to the counter and placed the box on the counter before peeling the plastic wrapping off of it. There was a coffee maker. Probably the only appliance that seemed somewhat new. A Keurig. How he came to have one of them, he had no idea. Kris had been wanting to get one for what seemed like a long time, but never really had the time for it. It had always seemed pretty neat to him. Just lifting the handle to look inside was kind of cool. There was a little cone where you would put the K-Cup. He fidgeted for a few moments before he came out with it in his hand. Neat. After getting a cup and filling the compartment on the side with water, he pressed the button in the middle which had glowed blue.
Two tea bags should be a enough, right? He wasn’t a big tea drinker. Katy had always been. She would put so much sugar in it. Equal to a freaking pixie stick. That was just too much. If he were to drink it he’d probably just drink it plan. Maybe with a bit of lemon. He doubted that Tommy had it. There didn’t look like there was much in his cabinets. A gut feeling told him that he hadn’t shopped in sometime. Which kind of figured. Take out was probably his best friend. Take out and beer.
When the dripping stopped, he pulled the cup onto the counter. Getting two tea bags, he laced them together before dipping them into the cup. Just a few moments then he pulled them out and quickly went to the trashcan to throw them in. Then getting the cup he made his way back into the living room. “Tea should do you go-” He looked around but Tommy was no longer on the couch. “Tommy?”
Nothing. “Tommy. Where’d you go?”
He signed, walking down the hallway and as he went he looked through each of the room. Nothing. Coming to the end of the hallway he stopped. The door was cracked open and he could hear the slightest of noise.
“Tommy?” Pushing the door open, he walked in. Nothing. The room was silent. His eyes roamed around the room before his eyes paused at his bed. Usually the blankets would be laying on the bed messily. But now, the bed had been made and looked like it hadn’t been touched in days. “Tommy?”
Nothing for a few moments and then he heard something. “Go ‘way, please.” The voice was small and hardly recognizable. But he knew it was Tommy’s. “You aren’t here. You aren’t real.”
Kris placed the cup down on the nightstand before he got down on his knees. Under the bed, Tommy laid on his side with his eyes closed. One of his hands was over his ear, and the other glued to his chest, just resting there. There was something that Kris noticed, his whole body was shaking. “Leave me alone, please.”
“Tommy, what are you doing?”
“You are not real. You are not real. You are not real. Leave me alone. Leave me alone. You can’t be real.”
“I am,” Kris said, reaching out just a little bit and touched his hand.
Tommy jolted back. “You are not real!”
“Come on. Tommy open your eyes. Come on. You can open them. There’s no one else around. Just me. Come on.”
“Leave me alone. Go away. Please. Please. Please. Just go away.” Tears began to roll down his cheek. “Please.”
“Shhh. It’s alright .You can open your eyes.” Kris moved his hand up and through Tommy’s hair. Pushing it back as he tried to soothe him. Never had he really seen Tommy this upset. Honestly, it seemed kind of weird. He was kind of that tough guy. At least that was how Kris kind of saw him. The one that overused the word Fuck and didn’t give a shit.
Tommy slowly opened his eyes. “K-Kris?”
“Yeah. Everything okay?”
“I...”
Kris just nodded. “Why don’t you come out from under here. When’s the last time you’ve slept?”
“I...It’s been a couple of days.”
“Okay. It’s okay to come out. You’ll be okay. The boogie man isn’t going to jump out and take you captive. You’re safe.”
Tommy crawled slowly over to Kris. He hadn’t been expecting it, but when Tommy sat up, he flung himself into Kris’ arms. Kris was taken aback, but he held Tommy close. “I’m taking you back home with me, and you’re not going to fight me about it.”
Kris stood them up slowly with Tommy leaning on him for support. He didn’t really think Tommy would need anything, and he could borrow some clothes if he needed to.
May 1st, 2016
It was a god awful hour when Kris reached for him phone. He hadn’t been asleep long, maybe an hour. After getting home, it took a half hour to get Tommy into the guest room and another half hour to get ready himself.
The screen on his cell phone was lit, and Katy’s name was across it. He sighed, they hadn’t really talked since everything happened with Adam. Kris knew it was mostly his fault, he was ignoring everyone, he just was forced into doing things with Brad, Cassidy, and Tommy. More like, Brad dragged them all around.
When he opened his phone, he blinked a couple times to get used to the light. He warmed up to it as he pressed to unlock the screen. The text came up after he pressed view.
Katy: Hey, are you up?
Kris pressed reply and it brought up a blank message. Maybe it was time to start talking to her again. He had gone a few months of not talking to her when they were getting their divorce. Even that was hard. It felt like he was anxious every single day. The worst part, he didn’t know why.
Kris: Hey (:
It didn’t take long before there was another text.
Katy: Can’t sleep. You?
Kris: Same. Long night.
Katy: :/ Tell me about it. Uh...Can I tell you something?
Kris: Sure. You know you can.
Katy: This isn’t something that I can see you taking well. It’s kind of big. But I hope that you take it well because you’re reaction is something I’ve replayed over inside of my head.
Kris: Tell me.
Katy: Well, for sometime now Daniel and I...Daniel and I have been seeing each other.
He stared at the text. What? Another popped up.
Katy: And it’s gotten pretty nice. We’ve told your parents just a couple of weeks ago. And since I moved back, things have progressed. A lot. We didn’t want to wait.
What?
Katy: We’ve talked about this before. And things have been pretty chaotic the last few months. I regret not telling you sooner. He asked me to marry him. And I told him yes.
Katy was....dating...no, engaged to Daniel? His brother Daniel. He was all for Katy meeting someone else and getting married again, but his own brother? What was this, a soap opera?
Kris: I’m happy for you, the both of you.
Katy: Really? I understand if you aren’t, it’s something different and a little close to home.
Kris: It’s fine, Katy, really.
Kris’ mind wondered. Why did Katy have to drop this bomb on him now? He hadn’t been sleeping, he had Tommy in his guest room who was having some sort of weird break down. Then again, she could have waited until the week before to say anything.
Katy: Is everything okay over there?
Kris: It’s fine. Things are getting back to normal, beside Allison...she came back from SA last night.
Katy: Oh that poor girl, she just heard about what happened, didn’t she?
Kris: No....no one told her.
The phone slipped from Kris’ hand. Katy must have sensed he didn’t want to talk about it, because she stopped replying. He was happy to have someone that didn’t push him, and with all things aside he really was happy for Katy and Daniel. It would be awkward during the holidays, but at least she wouldn’t be alone.
Author: xrazorbladesky and georgeegurl
Pairings/Character(s): Adam/Kris, Adam/Gabriel.
Warnings:Domestic violence, self-injury, character death(main character), suicide, Supernatural beings, major depression, alcoholism.(Highlight to read)
Rating: R
Words: 3,737
Summary: After being away for almost five years, Allison returns home.
Notes: Please read with care! Some warnings happen off-screen, but it doesn’t hurt to warn for them anyways.
April 30th, 2016
The ring of the doorbell was what sent Kris springing up off of the couch. Of course, Lux then started to bark. Every time the freaking door bell rang or she heard something. Kris thought about letting her live with Katy again, but maybe he needed her just as much as she needed him.
Falling asleep on the couch was probably not the best idea. Kinks in your neck that didn’t allow you to look up were the worst feeling. But that wasn’t saying that he didn’t have a comfortable couch. That was what got him to sleep in the first place. Turning the television on and kicking off his shows and watching CNN. He didn’t even make it past the first commercial before he dozed off. He felt exhausted and he really hadn’t done anything all day. Just sitting around made him tired. How could that happen? The answer, he didn’t really known. It just simply happened.
A yawn came from his mouth as his hand moved through his hair. Even with an hour or so nap, he still felt tired.
When he got to the door, Lux was sitting there clawing at it. He should invent something that helps a dog talk and answers doors. He’d make millions.
He reached up and slowly opened the door. The first thing that hit his eyes was the color black. Then a little laugh as arms outstretched and pulled him in for a hug. “Dude, I missed you so much.” Allison Iraheta. Just like that, he was pushed back a little so she could move into the house. “Katy? Adam? Where are you guys? You better get your butts in here!”
Kris said as he closed the door and stared at her, his mouth hanging open before it closed. He couldn’t believe that the girl was standing before him. “What are doing?”
“I know you’re here! You have to be here, dudes. I go away to SA for a few years and you’re not happy to see me when I come back?” When there was no answer, she turned around to face Kris. “What’s up, man?”
For the last few years she had been in South Africa. Something about teaching kids education with music. Kris didn’t really understand it. When she had told them, Katy, Adam, and Kris, they all thought it was a great opportunity. Not only was it soaking up another culture but it was teaching children important lessons while using songs. No one lost in that situation. Kris didn’t think it would be for five years. She must have really liked it. More power to her for finding something she liked to do. It was uncommon among many. Even he was kind of iffy about what his passions were nowadays.
“Oh c’mon,” She said, “You aren’t like, mad at me because I couldn’t call you right? I couldn’t really call anyone besides my parents. And I wrote letters. They came back to me most of the time.”
Kris sighed. She really had been disconnected from the world. She didn’t know anything that had happened in the past few years. How could her parents not of told her? They probably didn’t want to upset her. But it seemed so unfair. She was going to come home to the states and would read all about what went on and have a break down.
“Kris, what’s going on?”
“We need to talk, Alli.” He said softly.
“Okay.”
The two of them walked into his living room. Allison sat down on the couch, looking around the room. Katy’s stuff was gone. The pictures of them were still up, but her favorite blanket wasn’t across the back of the chair, some of her favorite nicknacks were gone from the shelves. “Did you redecorate?”
Kris shook his head. “Katy and I...we got a divorce a few years ago. It wasn’t too long after you left that things didn’t work out between us.”
“That’s crazy.” Allison said. “You two were perfect. To be honest, I thought you would have a baby by now. At least now you and Adam can get together,” she joked.
Kris looked away from her. Adam and him together? It was never going to happen. Not with Gabriel constantly having his attention. “Have you seen anyone else besides me?”
“Nope. You, bro are my first stop. Though, the first thing that I did when I got my phone was text Tommy. But it wouldn’t be a surprise if he changed his number. It’s been awhile.”
“Yeah. You’ve missed a lot.”
“Oh have I? Tell me. Have you finally realized that that love of your life was standing in front of you the whole time? Has he finally stopped puppying around waiting for you and finally told you that he liked you? Or did you do that part? “
“You missed a lot,” he repeated.
Allison laughed. “I’m trying to get you to fill me in here. Fill me in! Fill me in! ”
Kris looked down. It had to be the hardest thing he’d have to do. Allison was close to Adam. If anything, treated him exactly like she would her brother. She would take it hard. He knew that.
“Let me guess. You and Adam are getting married or something awesome like that. I must have came back at the right time. That’s excited. I knew Adam had it in him. But you...You, I was kind of spectacle of. Adam always wanted to tell you how he felt. I’m glad that he finally did.”
Kris looked up. “There’s a lot that you’ve missed. Not just between me and Katy.”
“Brad,” she nodded. “I know he’s a drama queen sometimes. Has he finally stopped making Cassidy chase him around? Or is he back with Adam? That there is a mistake waiting to happen. Brad is cool and all, but Adam can do better. Exes are exes. Friends are friends.”
“Brad is still as stupid as when you left him.”
“Then if it’s not Brad, it’s Neil. Or is it Tommy?”
“No. It’s Adam.”
“I knew it. Kris Allen and Adam Lambert are finally being sinful together.”
“Can you just shut up for a moment. I need to get this out. Just shut up. Afterward you’re not going to want to talk that much, believe me.”
Allison went quiet. Her smile, fading. “Geez.”
“Adam...A few months ago...A few months ago something happened. You wouldn’t have heard about it. And I’m kind of not surprised that your mother didn’t tell you about it. A few months ago...A few months ago...A few months...”
“Go on...”
“Adam died.”
Allison’s mouth fell open, and she stood up off the couch. “No, you’re lying. You have to be lying.”
“I wish I was -”
“No!” She screamed. “He was fine. There was nothing wrong with Adam. He couldn’t have just....died. Kris, this isn’t funny! This isn’t fucking funny at all!”
“Alli, it was an accident. No one knows how it happened.”
“Someone has to know! Who found him? Was it Brad? Tommy?”
“Gabriel.” Kris said.
“Who the fuck is Gabriel and what was he doing with Adam?!” Her eyes were filling with tears and she looked close to sobbing. Kris wasn’t ready for this, he didn’t want to deal with this again. “Was he just fucking around with this guy? Did Adam just take him home -”
“Did you really think that of him?” Kris asked.
“He’d do stupid shit when he was drinking sometimes.” Kris then remembered that Allison had gone on tour with Adam the first time, and she must have gone out partying with him. “He was so fucking love sick over you. He would try to get over it by fucking other guys. It never worked, obviously.”
“Gabriel was his partner, Allison. They were together for about three years.”
Allison’s jaw dropped. “P-Partner for three years?”
“Yes. They were together for the last three years. Adam was living with him.”
“L-Living with him?”
“Yes.”
Allison shook her head. It couldn’t be real. None of it could be real. Adam was probably hiding away just wanting to pop out saying ‘gotcha.’ Kris was a great actor. So fucking good it was unbelieveable. “Where is he? Is he hiding in your room?”
“Alli.”
“Adam can’t be fucking dead, Kris! No fucking way!”
“I’m sorry. But...”
“NO! NO. Just...Just no.” Allison’s eyes welled with tears and her whole body began to shake. Adam couldn’t be dead. Just no way. Her legs caved out and she fell to the ground. “Adam’s dead? And...And I didn’t ev-”
Kris moved over to her. “I know you were close to him. He wouldn’t want you to just sit around crying about his death. He would want you to be out in the world running around like you have been doing.”
Allison looked up, her eyes filled with tears and anger. “Oh, fuck off Kris. You just told me he’s gone. I hadn’t seen him in years and I’m....never going to again!” One of her hand pulled on her hair, the other was fiercely wiping away her tears. “Just give me some fucking time okay? Give me some time to let it sink in.”
April 30th, 2016 Part Two
Kris wasn’t sure how they ended up at the door of Tommy’s apartment. Allison wanted to see someone else besides him, so he thought Tommy was the best idea. Brad would just make smart remarks the whole time, Cassidy would glare at him, Katy would probably cry again, and even though Allison wanted to meet Gabriel, Kris refused.
He knocked on the door a few times and Sauli answered. Great, just what he needed. The Finn didn’t say anything, he just turned and let Kris in, Allison trailing behind him. Inside the living room Cassidy stood with Brad, and Tommy was curled on the couch who seemed pretty dead to the world.
“Oh, look who it is, the little heartbreaker.” Brad said, cocking his head to the side. Allison had stepped out from behind Kris, and Brad gasped. “Allison.”
Allison gave a small nod to him as she crossed her arms. “Hey.”
“Long time no see.”
“Tell me about it.”
Brad went over to her and pulled her into a hug. “It’s nice to see you.”
Another nod. “Yeah. Nice.” Allison looked over at everyone in the room. They seemed to all be staring at her. All expect Tommy. Still he hadn’t moved. Was he dead also? Her glance went back to Brad. “Is it true?”
“Is what true?” Brad asked.
“Is it true that you’re a fucking asshole. Is it true that Adam is dead you fucking jerk?”
Brad’s smile was whipped off of his face. None of his features were playful any longer. Serious. “I...”
“She’s been in Africa for a while,” Kris reminded him. “Meaning she just found out what happened.”
“Uh...”
“Yes,” Cassidy said.
“That’s great. Just great.”
“Swee -”
“That’s just fucking great. So fucking fantastic.” She shook her head. The tears didn’t fight there way to the surface and she somewhat seemed a little calmer. “Adam’s dead.”
Brad shrugged. “It happened a while ago. Everyone’s just kind of moved on from it.”
“Moved on?” She said, her head shaking. “Yeah, it fucking looks like it. I mean, look at Tommy, he’s in great shape.”
“He’s...” Cassidy looked over at Tommy, who wasn’t even reacting to his name. He was staring at something in the corner, his eyes distant and glazed over. “He’s been like this for a while, honey. We don’t...”
Allison back away from Brad, trying to get as far away from any contact as possible. “What the hell happened after I left, huh? Did you all just fall apart?”
“Alli...” Kris started.
“No! Just don’t, please. Someone just take me home. I...need my parents.” Allison felt like a child, but she wanted her mother. She wanted her mother to hold her and tell her everything was going to be okay. Not like these guys, who were suppose to be Adam’s best friends and saying they were over it. They were not over it, they were just pulling up walls to make everything seem better. Fuck the bullshit. She just couldn’t put up with any of it.
Adam Lambert died. How could they be fucking cool about that?
Cassidy stepped forward. “C’mon, I’ll take you. Brad, let’s go.”
“But -”
“Now, Brad!”
April 30th, 2016 Part Three
Tommy didn’t move. He just stayed on the couch, trying to curl farther into himself. Kris tried not to be worried, but this wasn’t normal. Sure, usually he was would be drinking and ignoring everybody. But even that kind of seemed better than being almost comatose.
Somehow he found himself making his way to the kitchen. He couldn’t just leave. Who knew what he would do than. There was many possible things that ran through Kris’ head. There was nothing to chance in any of them.
Messing around in the cabinets, he found a box of Lipton tea. Completely full and wrapped. A little laugh came from his head as he shook his head. Something Tommy would do. Buy something for some kind of reason but never open it. Even Kris had his share of times where he would do it. There had to be at least three bags of coffee waiting to be brewed.
He walked over to the counter and placed the box on the counter before peeling the plastic wrapping off of it. There was a coffee maker. Probably the only appliance that seemed somewhat new. A Keurig. How he came to have one of them, he had no idea. Kris had been wanting to get one for what seemed like a long time, but never really had the time for it. It had always seemed pretty neat to him. Just lifting the handle to look inside was kind of cool. There was a little cone where you would put the K-Cup. He fidgeted for a few moments before he came out with it in his hand. Neat. After getting a cup and filling the compartment on the side with water, he pressed the button in the middle which had glowed blue.
Two tea bags should be a enough, right? He wasn’t a big tea drinker. Katy had always been. She would put so much sugar in it. Equal to a freaking pixie stick. That was just too much. If he were to drink it he’d probably just drink it plan. Maybe with a bit of lemon. He doubted that Tommy had it. There didn’t look like there was much in his cabinets. A gut feeling told him that he hadn’t shopped in sometime. Which kind of figured. Take out was probably his best friend. Take out and beer.
When the dripping stopped, he pulled the cup onto the counter. Getting two tea bags, he laced them together before dipping them into the cup. Just a few moments then he pulled them out and quickly went to the trashcan to throw them in. Then getting the cup he made his way back into the living room. “Tea should do you go-” He looked around but Tommy was no longer on the couch. “Tommy?”
Nothing. “Tommy. Where’d you go?”
He signed, walking down the hallway and as he went he looked through each of the room. Nothing. Coming to the end of the hallway he stopped. The door was cracked open and he could hear the slightest of noise.
“Tommy?” Pushing the door open, he walked in. Nothing. The room was silent. His eyes roamed around the room before his eyes paused at his bed. Usually the blankets would be laying on the bed messily. But now, the bed had been made and looked like it hadn’t been touched in days. “Tommy?”
Nothing for a few moments and then he heard something. “Go ‘way, please.” The voice was small and hardly recognizable. But he knew it was Tommy’s. “You aren’t here. You aren’t real.”
Kris placed the cup down on the nightstand before he got down on his knees. Under the bed, Tommy laid on his side with his eyes closed. One of his hands was over his ear, and the other glued to his chest, just resting there. There was something that Kris noticed, his whole body was shaking. “Leave me alone, please.”
“Tommy, what are you doing?”
“You are not real. You are not real. You are not real. Leave me alone. Leave me alone. You can’t be real.”
“I am,” Kris said, reaching out just a little bit and touched his hand.
Tommy jolted back. “You are not real!”
“Come on. Tommy open your eyes. Come on. You can open them. There’s no one else around. Just me. Come on.”
“Leave me alone. Go away. Please. Please. Please. Just go away.” Tears began to roll down his cheek. “Please.”
“Shhh. It’s alright .You can open your eyes.” Kris moved his hand up and through Tommy’s hair. Pushing it back as he tried to soothe him. Never had he really seen Tommy this upset. Honestly, it seemed kind of weird. He was kind of that tough guy. At least that was how Kris kind of saw him. The one that overused the word Fuck and didn’t give a shit.
Tommy slowly opened his eyes. “K-Kris?”
“Yeah. Everything okay?”
“I...”
Kris just nodded. “Why don’t you come out from under here. When’s the last time you’ve slept?”
“I...It’s been a couple of days.”
“Okay. It’s okay to come out. You’ll be okay. The boogie man isn’t going to jump out and take you captive. You’re safe.”
Tommy crawled slowly over to Kris. He hadn’t been expecting it, but when Tommy sat up, he flung himself into Kris’ arms. Kris was taken aback, but he held Tommy close. “I’m taking you back home with me, and you’re not going to fight me about it.”
Kris stood them up slowly with Tommy leaning on him for support. He didn’t really think Tommy would need anything, and he could borrow some clothes if he needed to.
May 1st, 2016
It was a god awful hour when Kris reached for him phone. He hadn’t been asleep long, maybe an hour. After getting home, it took a half hour to get Tommy into the guest room and another half hour to get ready himself.
The screen on his cell phone was lit, and Katy’s name was across it. He sighed, they hadn’t really talked since everything happened with Adam. Kris knew it was mostly his fault, he was ignoring everyone, he just was forced into doing things with Brad, Cassidy, and Tommy. More like, Brad dragged them all around.
When he opened his phone, he blinked a couple times to get used to the light. He warmed up to it as he pressed to unlock the screen. The text came up after he pressed view.
Katy: Hey, are you up?
Kris pressed reply and it brought up a blank message. Maybe it was time to start talking to her again. He had gone a few months of not talking to her when they were getting their divorce. Even that was hard. It felt like he was anxious every single day. The worst part, he didn’t know why.
Kris: Hey (:
It didn’t take long before there was another text.
Katy: Can’t sleep. You?
Kris: Same. Long night.
Katy: :/ Tell me about it. Uh...Can I tell you something?
Kris: Sure. You know you can.
Katy: This isn’t something that I can see you taking well. It’s kind of big. But I hope that you take it well because you’re reaction is something I’ve replayed over inside of my head.
Kris: Tell me.
Katy: Well, for sometime now Daniel and I...Daniel and I have been seeing each other.
He stared at the text. What? Another popped up.
Katy: And it’s gotten pretty nice. We’ve told your parents just a couple of weeks ago. And since I moved back, things have progressed. A lot. We didn’t want to wait.
What?
Katy: We’ve talked about this before. And things have been pretty chaotic the last few months. I regret not telling you sooner. He asked me to marry him. And I told him yes.
Katy was....dating...no, engaged to Daniel? His brother Daniel. He was all for Katy meeting someone else and getting married again, but his own brother? What was this, a soap opera?
Kris: I’m happy for you, the both of you.
Katy: Really? I understand if you aren’t, it’s something different and a little close to home.
Kris: It’s fine, Katy, really.
Kris’ mind wondered. Why did Katy have to drop this bomb on him now? He hadn’t been sleeping, he had Tommy in his guest room who was having some sort of weird break down. Then again, she could have waited until the week before to say anything.
Katy: Is everything okay over there?
Kris: It’s fine. Things are getting back to normal, beside Allison...she came back from SA last night.
Katy: Oh that poor girl, she just heard about what happened, didn’t she?
Kris: No....no one told her.
The phone slipped from Kris’ hand. Katy must have sensed he didn’t want to talk about it, because she stopped replying. He was happy to have someone that didn’t push him, and with all things aside he really was happy for Katy and Daniel. It would be awkward during the holidays, but at least she wouldn’t be alone.