The last, the lost, the least.
I have such mixed emotions about being home. I feel like I'm torn between really appreciating my friends, and slightly resenting them. I think I'm having to readjust to who they've become, and who I've grown to be as well.
I went to Moulton yesterday with the boys. Such a good day. It finally felt like summer =)
I've been drinking too much. My body is clearly trying to tell me I need to stop. I feel horrible. I feel sluggish, nauseous and heavy.
In Hawaii I drank maybe once every few weeks. Here I'm drinking 4 or 5 nights a week. Not getting hammered or pounding back massive amounts, but definitely more than I want to.
I don't eat as well here either. I really need to make an effort to improve my health. I've been walking about 3 miles a day which I need to make sure I do everyday. I want to wake up earlier and go to bed earlier. I'm craving more routine, more substance to my life.
I have been getting things in order for the big move. I'm on Craigslist all throughout the day everyday. Looking for places, searching prices, comparing, emailing, etc.
I've got everything figured out for my financial aid loans and have been approved overall for the $67,000 I need for school, which is AMAZING and such a relief. The part that is so frustrating though is that I don't get any of it until after the quarter starts, so Although it's what I will be paying my rent with... and I'll need a place in August, I won't have the money to pay for it until mid September...so I'm going to need to come up with approximately $4,000 for everything that I can pay back in September.
The other weekend I ran into someone's mom. She proceeded to tell me how good I would be for her son and that I shouldn't give up on him. I told her, although that's true... I can't beat a dead horse and that he's made the decision to stop talking to me. Hearing her say that hurt my heart. I didn't even know she knew anything about he and I. She's wonderful too, so it hurt even worse. A mom that doesn't hate me and actually thinks I'd be good for her son. Shocking that actually exists.
2 months from now, I'll be living in California. That is crazy.
I can't believe I've been home for 2 months already. Summer's a half way over.... Only wish I had more to show for that.
I have a wedding I'm going to August 28th. I'm going to need a date. I'll probably just end up dragging one of my guy friends along, but it sure would be nice to have an actual date to take. Guess we'll just have to wait and see.
I went to Moulton yesterday with the boys. Such a good day. It finally felt like summer =)
I've been drinking too much. My body is clearly trying to tell me I need to stop. I feel horrible. I feel sluggish, nauseous and heavy.
In Hawaii I drank maybe once every few weeks. Here I'm drinking 4 or 5 nights a week. Not getting hammered or pounding back massive amounts, but definitely more than I want to.
I don't eat as well here either. I really need to make an effort to improve my health. I've been walking about 3 miles a day which I need to make sure I do everyday. I want to wake up earlier and go to bed earlier. I'm craving more routine, more substance to my life.
I have been getting things in order for the big move. I'm on Craigslist all throughout the day everyday. Looking for places, searching prices, comparing, emailing, etc.
I've got everything figured out for my financial aid loans and have been approved overall for the $67,000 I need for school, which is AMAZING and such a relief. The part that is so frustrating though is that I don't get any of it until after the quarter starts, so Although it's what I will be paying my rent with... and I'll need a place in August, I won't have the money to pay for it until mid September...so I'm going to need to come up with approximately $4,000 for everything that I can pay back in September.
The other weekend I ran into someone's mom. She proceeded to tell me how good I would be for her son and that I shouldn't give up on him. I told her, although that's true... I can't beat a dead horse and that he's made the decision to stop talking to me. Hearing her say that hurt my heart. I didn't even know she knew anything about he and I. She's wonderful too, so it hurt even worse. A mom that doesn't hate me and actually thinks I'd be good for her son. Shocking that actually exists.
2 months from now, I'll be living in California. That is crazy.
I can't believe I've been home for 2 months already. Summer's a half way over.... Only wish I had more to show for that.
I have a wedding I'm going to August 28th. I'm going to need a date. I'll probably just end up dragging one of my guy friends along, but it sure would be nice to have an actual date to take. Guess we'll just have to wait and see.