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The Hawaii chapter has officially closed.
Sold my moped on Saturday. It was much harder to part with than I was prepared for. That was my main source of independence in Hawaii. I bought it after Paul and I broke up since I had always relied on his car. It was my way of taking care of myself and not depending on a male to function. I feel good about the guy I sold it to. He had never had a moped before, didn't know how to drive one. He seemed pretty excited about it and he looked like a little kid in a candy store driving it. I feel like he'll appreciate it, which for whatever silly reason, comforts me.
I went surfing! On my last day in Hawaii, I went with my roommate. The waves were kind of junk but i didn't know any better and frankly, if they were any bigger I'd probably have had an anxiety attack. So I did it. Can check it off my list.
It's strange being home, being back here.
I was so ready to be done with Hawaii and back here, and now that I'm here I feel oddly out of place and uncomfortable. I can't remember if home's ever felt this foreign to me.
Everyone's got jobs or school and things they are doing and I'm just...floating, freeloading. I feel worthless. I'm a little ridiculous that way... I've only been here a day and I'm already over being unemployed.
I've just got some readjusting to do.
Sold my moped on Saturday. It was much harder to part with than I was prepared for. That was my main source of independence in Hawaii. I bought it after Paul and I broke up since I had always relied on his car. It was my way of taking care of myself and not depending on a male to function. I feel good about the guy I sold it to. He had never had a moped before, didn't know how to drive one. He seemed pretty excited about it and he looked like a little kid in a candy store driving it. I feel like he'll appreciate it, which for whatever silly reason, comforts me.
I went surfing! On my last day in Hawaii, I went with my roommate. The waves were kind of junk but i didn't know any better and frankly, if they were any bigger I'd probably have had an anxiety attack. So I did it. Can check it off my list.
It's strange being home, being back here.
I was so ready to be done with Hawaii and back here, and now that I'm here I feel oddly out of place and uncomfortable. I can't remember if home's ever felt this foreign to me.
Everyone's got jobs or school and things they are doing and I'm just...floating, freeloading. I feel worthless. I'm a little ridiculous that way... I've only been here a day and I'm already over being unemployed.
I've just got some readjusting to do.