(no subject)
i want someone to hang around with, someone to lay around in bed with all day and listen to stupid music with and cuddle with. i want someone who will bitch at me to clean up the house and kiss away my tears and take pictures with and drink crappy coffee with at two in the morning. i want to live in a place with big windows and a big bed and a big kitchen and piles of books so high we have book-alanches weekly. i want to sit on the porch in the rain and wear flip flops everyday and never brush my hair. i want to work with children, teach them how to paint a sunset, how to make a sunflower look sad, and a lonely night happy. i want to change a life. i want to cook dinner every night and have it be great and good and crappy and inedible and burnt. i want to make pancakes and bacon and eggs and hot coffee for breakfast and wake up to smiling eyes. i want a stupid looking dog and a mean cat and a tempermental car that never starts. i want to paint on the walls and the ceiling and the sky. i want to pick out rugs and curtains and argue about the best fabric softener. i want to go to the beach and get sunburnt and get sand everywhere and find seashells and walk my dog on the rocks. i want to let my hair grow long and curly and wear dumb hats. i want to grow flowers and vegetables and have a tree with birdfeeders and squirrels. i want to take long baths and walk around naked until i'm dry and to not ever put on makeup. i want to paint my toes all a different colors and wear so many bracelets that they make noise when i walk around. i want a wall of clocks that tick so loud the dog doesn't sleep well. i want mirrors and candles and pictures and stupid things on the walls. i want to get away from the world and never answer my phone and not watch television and not turn on the radio and not open my laptop. i want to make love with the windows open and eat icecream for breakfast. i want to drive all day only to get nowhere. i want to play guitar all day and sing and bang my tamborine. i want to dance and laugh and sweat. i want to grow daisies and roses and lilies and make flower necklaces to sell on the sand. i want to catch sandpipers and find big shells and throw bread out to seagulls. i want to bake something new everyday and learn something old every night. i want to feel beautiful in the moolight and skinny dip in the salt waves. i want to put flowers in my hair and leave the christmas lights up all year. i want to light insence in every room and smell smoky and damp and sweet. i want to write and to read and to sing and to paint. i want to love.