things arn't what they seem...makes no sence at all
So i've given up on all of them, all of my guy obsesions are pritty much out and gone.I havn't given up on the one person i said i would give up on though. I should give up on him but i'm just so lost. Hes so..i dono. I'm so pathetic i swear. Its like i ask for people to break my heart. But i guna just do like crack said and be straight with him. Say I like u...and see what happens. I might be rejected, i might be hurt, and if so..it will be considered practice for acting rejections. I guess that i just wana be apart of the team. That i wana be loved and held and kissed and enjoyed. I'm just this little girl and i'm asking for the one thing i dream bout. I hope and prey that this is it. Its almost may 26th...that would be scott and my year annerversary if we were still dating. Yea..i'm just out there right now. Performance was so nice. Josh and i smothered it and nobody expected that kiss at the end so people gasped and man..it was amazing. And then out of left field that compliment from mr.t about my actting>i was floored. Yea it was fun and i enjoyed being kissed. Mia my mom and i met joshes mom and she was really cool to us so after that i drove us home and we ate indian food to celebrate and we were talkin bout how i'm guna spend some time with hank and dale during the summer for acting and music and stuff. When we ask them about the music I'm also going to ask them...the me my fathers. Yea I might actually get my wish of having a dad that will be near to me and love me. Instead of one I might have 2..i'm excited, cuz i miss my dad and i just feel so isolated and hurt without him. I think about him alot. I think about alot of things alot but he is always there. yea..interesitng day>can't wait to see what tommrow will bring but i had alot of fun and now i don't have to complcate my life with 20million guys just 1 and i don't have alot of time so i need to move quick_night!!!!