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Ok I think people should perpair themselves. I'm guna get a little deep for a second and well..the only person I told this to was tom at rca and yea. So Todays friday right. I stayed home because I was tired and I didn't want to get up and go to my own personal hel. Not today. I'm so tired and drained and ashamed. So This is where i spill abot what is going on that I have been keeping from everyone. On Wed after the acting performance I found out that one of my sisters best friends in high school died. He overdosed on heroine. A parently he was found dead in his apartment or somthing. I never really knew him to well but maria and I would always look at pictures of him and she wouls tell me stories and mia used to like have a kinda crush on this kid i could so tell, so i felt like I knew him, and now he is dead. hes dead.Yea honeslty I'm fine right now I just am in shock as usual. While thinking of dj I think bout julio and how hes spiralling down and I wonder, I know that we have all given up on julio because there is nothing we can do but I wondee if julio is guna be gone soon. I wonder if some of the people I hang out with whom I know have serious problems with drugs are guna be gone soon 2. This is just me thinking. I'm not sad about any of this because honeslty this isn't new stuff. I have been wait for my own brothers death since we were with him in the hospital in orange in 2001-2002. Yea I've noticed me keeping secrets from people latly.Its not my thing but I've been doing it. Or i will just tell one person. Yea changing the subject um I'm going to florida this weekedn whith julie and her kids>not to excited bout them but on saterday We are going to miami to see the Otazo clan!!!Now I can see marilola and alicia and juan pier exc!!!and all of there kids.It should be fun and I'm very excited considering i haven't seen them in like forever. Oh one more this last night I was going to tell a certain person some information about my feelings and he wasn't home. I got myself all pumped up and he wasn't home and then massive argument wih my mom so i didn't get to call him back..yea. I'm guna tell him because thats just what i do and when i do i'll see where i'm going. Yea it has come to my attention that certain people like to read my lj and slip by unnoticed. Well If these people continue to read my lj without commenting and then talking to me about my posts online then i will make my lj a friends only and that goes for u mr. scott a. Yea I'm guna eat some breakfast. i'll be back on sunday and i will write all bout florida!!!-BYEEE