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today while arguing with my mom i slamed my face against a door. I'm a little swollen and red but generally ok. Everything was ok today. I hung out with becca in video and flirted with doug and britney.It was fun but i found myself at times jelous cuz i have a jelousy problem so i guess thats y. Um yea class was totally unproductive hung around did nothing and as usual for the like 2 seconds i saw josh he was all moody and i'm just like well atleast i know that the aderold don't just make me a total jerk off.Anyways so i went home ran to the meeting for relay for life>i was like 15 min.s late and like4 people were there.Lily and sarah and everyone where seriously yelling for like 2 hours straight about how we were screwed and yea. So i dragged myself home with a little jason mraz to keep me company(yea i sing really loud in my car with the windows down>i get funny looks and i really enjoy it) Yea so i called josh like 500 times and talked to tash and yatyata. finally josh picks up and...it was interesting really.It was the best conversation i'me every had. I literally said 4 senteces with the exception of half of my lines. I sat listening to him eat wafles and play me or himself piano. It was a really warm quiet feeling.It felt like.....i can't describe it completly but it was kinda like sitting and watching a sunset>it felt free and comfortable and i've never felt that way around a guy before. Trust me if i knew were this was going i wouldn't feel this way now, but i just wna remember this. No matter what happens next with all my ana vs. guys bull>i just wana remember this-time to sleep-night ana