my past...
I'm reading my old journal entries because I cannot sleep. So far the best times of my life weren't in months or years...they were in days and hours. I've had so much fun with so many friends. Some I don't even talk to anymore, which in part is my fault. But, some I just started talking to again. I also realize I regret a lot of things, and I've had really good thoughts. I also know how much I miss being super busy. I really miss that, I loved being busy. Only one person is on AIM right now, and I am so thankful for Christopher Martin Hughes. I really miss him and I had a lot of good memories with him. I also like white better than black now compared to them, and pepper better than salt. I know those are minor, but its a noticeable change. Also, I wonder why someone hasn't been like, "hey bobi, break up with him you can do much better." I was a dumb girl. I worried about things that do not even phase me now. It is funny how time matures you. I really did used to listen to good music. I might have to make a new CD! Every summer there is atleast one night, I pull an allnighter and go run while the sun comes up. I believe this may be that night. Did I mention that I actually used to listen to good music. Also, since I have moved out, and gone to school...my parents have never been happier together. But, when I was in high school I always wanted money. I can't believe how close I was to some of the people in the class of 04' and I don't even talk to any of them anymore. Just a big hello when see eachother. But, that is life and flaky friends. Okay I am officially tired of readin this, plus the more I read it the more depressed I get. I really miss some parts of my past and I regret a lot of them. But, there are so many good ones with the people that actually read this (Brandon, Sami...whoever else) that even though I made dumb decisions and choices the good ones cancel them out. They make me smile and laugh. I'm just bored right now and just thinking about life. I'm going to go run now I think. Thursday I am going to go see Pirates 3 and samantha i will be thinking about you every minute!