this time of year
normally this time of year, i'd be outside 24/7.
right now i'd be on my porch just laying there.
i'd be playing with my dog.
i'd be hanging out with my best friend.
i'd be slacking off in school.
i'd be happy.
i'd be carefree.
but no this time of year
i'm stuck inside because no one ever wants to go outside and play.
i'm not even with my dog, he's with my parents. and he doesn't love me anymore. which saddens me deeply.
i'm not even really talking to my best friend. if she even is that. this breaks my heart.
i'm worrying about school. my major. my gpa. my future. everything matters so much right now. and always will.
i'm happy. i am that. i have the best boyfriend, a job, and i go to school. i guess i'm the american teen dream. ha right.
i'm not carefree. not anymore. it sucks too much.
i love this weather, i love this time of year. and yet i cannot enjoy it the way i used to. but thats what happens right. things change. but .... overall it just sucks. but i am happy. and yet, i'm really sad.