Fuck this shit.
So while those that try to console me seem to want to find inspiration from God. It just makes me sick.
"God has a plan..."
"God thinks you aren't ready yet..."
"God is going to give you a child when you are ready, you just have to pray."
Why? Why am I not ready and some fucking dumb ass kid in Alaska is? Why is it okay for people to have an 'accident' and be upset about it, but when I want to have a child, it's 'you aren't ready for it, or it's not part of the plan.'
Well fuck you.
I don't need the approval of a magic being in the sky to have a child.
I think it's great that some people do, but I'm not one of them.
Don't get me wrong, I get why religion is a big part of it for some, but not for me.
What I am having problems with, why did it take so long to see a fucking problem? If the last pregnancy had been put under a microscope and actually looked at as opposed to chocking it up to chromosomal problems, then there is a strong chance I would still be pregnant.
Then I have the difference in opinions. Ursula, one of the Midwives, said I should go to a fertility doctor.
The Doctor I saw Last Friday said the same thing.
Caroline said no, you don't need that, just progesterone.
Well who the fuck do I listen to?!
An why should I trust them?!
Oh right, because I can't find a midwife and I am not comfortable with a man having his hands up my vagina.
You know I seem to think that if men could get pregnant, abortion would be treated like a sacrament, and birth would be as comfortable as possible.
"God has a plan..."
"God thinks you aren't ready yet..."
"God is going to give you a child when you are ready, you just have to pray."
Why? Why am I not ready and some fucking dumb ass kid in Alaska is? Why is it okay for people to have an 'accident' and be upset about it, but when I want to have a child, it's 'you aren't ready for it, or it's not part of the plan.'
Well fuck you.
I don't need the approval of a magic being in the sky to have a child.
I think it's great that some people do, but I'm not one of them.
Don't get me wrong, I get why religion is a big part of it for some, but not for me.
What I am having problems with, why did it take so long to see a fucking problem? If the last pregnancy had been put under a microscope and actually looked at as opposed to chocking it up to chromosomal problems, then there is a strong chance I would still be pregnant.
Then I have the difference in opinions. Ursula, one of the Midwives, said I should go to a fertility doctor.
The Doctor I saw Last Friday said the same thing.
Caroline said no, you don't need that, just progesterone.
Well who the fuck do I listen to?!
An why should I trust them?!
Oh right, because I can't find a midwife and I am not comfortable with a man having his hands up my vagina.
You know I seem to think that if men could get pregnant, abortion would be treated like a sacrament, and birth would be as comfortable as possible.