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I'm going to be away for a while.
I lost the baby.....
I'm still actively cramping and ....yeah...
I did something bad and went online and read that a scarred uterus will prevent the baby from implanting and it can cause infertility.
Infertility being not able to carry to term. Which is what they are going to put me under at the moment.
I am not dealing with this well. I am having scary thoughts, so they are placing me on meds to keep me calm. I am inbetween doses at the moment, so I wanted to let you know what is going on.
I made a joke today to Lou....I was like well it could be your fault...and if it is...do I get to 'legally' fuck another guy? He laughed and said no.
I said it's probably me....he told me not to say that.
I made the car anology.
It doesnt matter how awesome the gas is, if the car isn't up to snuff, it won't run.
So basically I am right now blaiming myself for this. When I was 17 I terminated a pregnancy, which could have scarred my uterus, thusly making it impossible for the embro to implant into my uterine lining.
I'm in hiding becasue I am having problems dealing with this....
I am taking off some of this week to let myself heal, and possibly begin therapy.
If you need me you know how to find me.
....until then,
love you all.
me.
I lost the baby.....
I'm still actively cramping and ....yeah...
I did something bad and went online and read that a scarred uterus will prevent the baby from implanting and it can cause infertility.
Infertility being not able to carry to term. Which is what they are going to put me under at the moment.
I am not dealing with this well. I am having scary thoughts, so they are placing me on meds to keep me calm. I am inbetween doses at the moment, so I wanted to let you know what is going on.
I made a joke today to Lou....I was like well it could be your fault...and if it is...do I get to 'legally' fuck another guy? He laughed and said no.
I said it's probably me....he told me not to say that.
I made the car anology.
It doesnt matter how awesome the gas is, if the car isn't up to snuff, it won't run.
So basically I am right now blaiming myself for this. When I was 17 I terminated a pregnancy, which could have scarred my uterus, thusly making it impossible for the embro to implant into my uterine lining.
I'm in hiding becasue I am having problems dealing with this....
I am taking off some of this week to let myself heal, and possibly begin therapy.
If you need me you know how to find me.
....until then,
love you all.
me.