So last week, I had some really serious psychotic episodes. During one of them, I ended up going to the ER. Ever feel patronized? I do sometimes. As for how I feel about that; I'm sorry, I just don't know. My mom says it sounds like I'm hurting. I have no idea in what way. At least my computer works, I guess. It was really scary. It's petrification ( Read more... )

I have to say that things are definately working out well. I can't help but think I might just have fixed it. Does it matter now? Will it ever again? I have no clue ( Read more... )

So I fried my ass off with Marcus here last night. That's about as specific as I can really go with that. I'm real excited about all of the fun things being thrown my way these days, but I am kinda disappointed that Hetric and Brendican will be leaving in less than a month. I guess you win some and lose some. I've prematurely decided that I'm an ( Read more... )

We went down to Evel Knievel days and ended up ditching Mommy for some other person. Then we ended up staying the night at said house, and I accidentally had sex with the person we were with. Half-way through, I was informed that the said incident "never happened." Personally, that's shit to me. Why would somebody instigate that and then want to ( Read more... )

So... the past week has been pretty interesting. I have to say that I'm really enjoying just being here and living in this "foul year of our lord" 2006. Actually, I've always had a feeling that I was going to like the year 2006 ( Read more... )

I think I have fixed my surroundings so that most of the day, I'm surrounded by some pretty cool fuckers. Erik is annoying, but by himself without Roni and sometimes with Faye kicks ass. Roni is really good for chill time. Faye is... the driving force of at least half of her friends (at least half the time). Turtle kid's honest and pretty chill. My ( Read more... )

Last night, a friend did something really cool that made me really happy. I have serious nostalgia for almost everything 24/7. I like being reminded that I was my own person once. It helps motivate me to get that back. I'm working on it real hard. And, for the most part, I think I'm doing a fairly decent job of it ( Read more... )

The day was definately started in good spirits. Then, I realized everything fuck-hole has stolen off of my person. Then, the little pissant has the nerve to yell at me. I made a joke and he freaked the fuck out. I can feel something waking inside of me. It's just... right inside... boiling and waiting for me to sweat it out. It's like this ( Read more... )

Why say no when it feels so good to say yes? That's right, that bitch... oh god. He got me so good. He did some stuff that made me think "why would you do that?!" Oh my god. Marcus smells like shit... litterally. I know where the next spot is going to be cos that fucker needs to bathe. The plan abridged and readapted worked very well if I do say so ( Read more... )

I've met alot of really immoral people in the last six years. It leaves a really bad perception of going out into the world. I always kept to myself when I was little. The day I started hanging out with people, bad shit happened. It just keeps getting worse. I kindof want to go with a goody goody the next time around just so I know there'll be ( Read more... )