mind blocks
it's weird how the mind works. i remember the stupidest stuff. although as i get older my mind seems to block the bad stuff out. like i was reading my early entries in this stupid thing and in a survey i said something about my mom calling me a whore. she did when i was like 14 haha. if i remember correctly she said "do you want everyone to think we're raising a whore?" which made me remember all the other ridiculous shit my mom has said to me in my life. i.e. calling me fat and ugly and how when i finally confronted her about it she told me i was crazy and that she never said those things. haha. you have to take "happy pills" and you tell me i'm crazy?
it's a good thing i'll be back in michigan the 18th to the 25th so i get to spend a week with my mom and dad. i can't figure out how she could say and do all the hurtfull things she did when i was younger but now she cries everytime she see me and everytime i leave. maybe it's the guilt of treating me like shit?
who knows......this work day needs to be over already...
it's a good thing i'll be back in michigan the 18th to the 25th so i get to spend a week with my mom and dad. i can't figure out how she could say and do all the hurtfull things she did when i was younger but now she cries everytime she see me and everytime i leave. maybe it's the guilt of treating me like shit?
who knows......this work day needs to be over already...