Life if meant to be lived .... the good and the bad ...
so I took that much needed break .... hibernated for a couple days ... finished The Da Vinci Code ... and just spent some alone time .... I needed it ... I feel ... centered somehow .... I sick of being judged for my actions and the way I live my life .... the way my life is right now isn't the ideal situations I know ... but honestly I'm making the best of it and I'm happy and content with it ... those things that can't be changed I'm ok with ... the biggest one is the whole "relationship" issue ... fuck it ... no, I don't have a "boyfriend" .... I'm not explaining my situations ...(yes plural ... kiss my ass if you disapprove) .... they're my business and the other people involved business and that's all that matters ... no one is being hurt and I honestly couldn't care less if you approve of what I'm doing in regards to these situations ... I'm happy, I'm not causing anyone else to be unhappy ... I'm just living my life happily single and all that that entails ... and that is the last thing I have to say on that matter ...
financial .... I'm fucked ... kinda ... but hey welcome to adulthood and responsibilities .... oh well .... it's a constant stress I can deal with ... all that really matters is I have my own place, I can afford myself and my car and the occasional splurges on stuff .... so actually I think I'm doing pretty damn good!
school is wonderful ... I finally fixed the shit I fucked up last fall .... I've learned from my mistakes and I'm stronger for it ....
I'm so happy with my life right now ... and I know I keep going from this to "giving up" or getting really close to it ... but even when I'm about to give up and the stress gets to be too much ... I step back, look at how far I've come, how I've grown ... and honestly I'm thankful I've made it this far, and I like the person that I am right now ... and after seeing it that way it's impossible for me to look at all I've gone through and give up ... that just isn't me ... I don't give up .... call it a flaw ... but tell me I can't do something and I'LL DO IT and smile the whole time if for no other reason than to just to prove you wrong,.... I know my limits but I know that I can push them with the right motivation .... so keep talking, keep telling me I can't do it .... it's funny that you are my motivation and air to the fire that keeps me going at such a speed ....
but to those who are there for me when I think all this is too much I thank you ... you remind me that I can handle all this and that I have support ... I know I never ask for help, but knowing that you all believe in me is all I need to keep me from giving up ... so thank you ... especially those that always post advice for me when I start to look at things negatively, and remind me of who I am ... I'm an optimist at heart so thank you for reminding me when I begin to doubt ..... I truly appreciate it
financial .... I'm fucked ... kinda ... but hey welcome to adulthood and responsibilities .... oh well .... it's a constant stress I can deal with ... all that really matters is I have my own place, I can afford myself and my car and the occasional splurges on stuff .... so actually I think I'm doing pretty damn good!
school is wonderful ... I finally fixed the shit I fucked up last fall .... I've learned from my mistakes and I'm stronger for it ....
I'm so happy with my life right now ... and I know I keep going from this to "giving up" or getting really close to it ... but even when I'm about to give up and the stress gets to be too much ... I step back, look at how far I've come, how I've grown ... and honestly I'm thankful I've made it this far, and I like the person that I am right now ... and after seeing it that way it's impossible for me to look at all I've gone through and give up ... that just isn't me ... I don't give up .... call it a flaw ... but tell me I can't do something and I'LL DO IT and smile the whole time if for no other reason than to just to prove you wrong,.... I know my limits but I know that I can push them with the right motivation .... so keep talking, keep telling me I can't do it .... it's funny that you are my motivation and air to the fire that keeps me going at such a speed ....
but to those who are there for me when I think all this is too much I thank you ... you remind me that I can handle all this and that I have support ... I know I never ask for help, but knowing that you all believe in me is all I need to keep me from giving up ... so thank you ... especially those that always post advice for me when I start to look at things negatively, and remind me of who I am ... I'm an optimist at heart so thank you for reminding me when I begin to doubt ..... I truly appreciate it