ow my head
It's been a really crappy week for migraines. As you remember I ended up in the ER Monday night, and Tuesday was better but by the time I got back from the concert I felt pretty awful.
Wednesday and Thursday were brutal at work, and both nights I went home with a killer migraine. I vaped both nights and it helped immensely--I actually felt really, really good after vaping last night. I'd vaped more than I normally do, just a bit, and I was sooooo not sober but oh, man, I felt great. My stomach had been bothering me all day and it stopped, my head didn't hurt, and I just felt happy and relaxed and giggly.
Today I got the Botox injections, and that really sucked because they always hurt and by the time Dr. S was done I had a brewing migraine. Fortunately he gave me a new scrip of dilaudid and I got it filled and took one, so that's better.
The problem with all of this is that I have to cut down ibuprofen drastically, or cut it out entirely. I'm pretty certain that the stomach issues I've been having for the last few weeks are due to the ibuprofen, or at least they're not being helped by it. But I've been taking so much ibuprofen for so long that I'm going to rebound from it until it clears out of my system, and I don't know how long that takes. I know caffeine takes three days, but I don't know how long it takes to recover from rebound headaches caused by lack of ibuprofen. Anyone?
So I'm really trying to cut down. Dr. S gave me a refill on the dilaudid, and a larger scrip for tramadol, and I'm hoping that if I'm careful I can use those sparingly over the next few weeks as I get used to not taking ibuprofen anymore. But I can't use either the dilaudid or the tramadol that often because my tolerance can only go up so much. Plus it's a lot easier to rebound from dilaudid than from ibuprofen, and the dilaudid rebound headaches are worse.
The timing on this is not ideal, since the Botox takes up to a week to really kick in and I would like to not be in rebound hell when I start the new position, but my stomach has vociferously protested the ibuprofen so I don't have much choice.
I have had five people ask me about positions over in my new org. Four of them were for the same role I'm getting, one was for something else. I feel kind of guilty about this, but I specifically passed on one person's resume for my equivalent role, because I think he's the best suited for it. I've worked with him since I got here and he honestly does my job better than some people on my team. (He's one of our vendors. Fortunately the new org uses a different vendor company so I'm not breaking the rules.)
Of the other three people, two of them could also do it but I don't think one of them would be a good fit personality-wise, and the other is rock solid and I feel guilty for not passing him on, but I like the guy I did refer better. The third person I haven't worked with enough to be able to give a reference.
But I did tell S (my new boss) that I've had a few people ask, and he said he'll keep them in mind if he gets more headcount.
The person I did refer for the open head (there is one) should be getting an interview loop, but he'll be up against two other candidates so I don't know who will get it. Obviously I hope it's him, but I've got no input beyond what I already did.
It's kind of depressing that so many people have asked me about this. In some cases it's because people would like to convert to FTE, which I get, but in all cases it's also something where people just don't want to work here anymore. The atmosphere is turning toxic, or at least it feels that way to me. Some of it is probably because there's a lot of change happening, and that always makes for a tense atmosphere, but some of it is just that the place feels like a sinking ship. Professionally it's not; I don't see my current group going away any time soon and hopefully it'll actually grow. But on a personal level there's just a lot of stress and tension and it's not good.
I have no idea what the new environment will be like. I do know they put a lot of emphasis on people fitting well into the team and being able to work together; my second interview was all about making sure I would be comfortable with the team and they with me. So in that regard I'm hopeful it'll be better. Work-wise, I'm still not sure what to expect.
Buuuut if I hate it, I can start looking again after about six months.
Otherstuff: I ordered the chair I'd been thinking about. I did not actually sit in it first, for which my dad gave me grief this morning, but I actually had some valid reasons:
1. I've read multiple reviews of it online and they all raved about it.
2. I had a friend personally recommend it; she works from home, spends 12+ hours at the computer, and says it's great. She's had hers a few years now and no signs of wear.
3. It's a Herman Miller chair, and they are phenomenal for ergonomics. We used to have Herman Miller chairs when I was at E.* and they were amazingly comfortable, as well as infinitely adjustable. I've wanted another one since. The model I got is actually more ergonomic and adjustable than the one I had at E.*, so I am pretty optimistic that it'll work out for me.
And if it doesn't, I ordered it from Design Within Reach and they have a 30-day return policy. I'm waiting for a call from the guy who is supposed to schedule delivery for it. Clearly I'll need to be home, as I do not want to carry this giant thing up the stairs myself, and I don't know if assembly is required or not.
I've actually only taken ibuprofen once today, in the morning. I've had to take oxycodone since then, but only one dose, and I'm doing okay. So this might not be as terrible as I feared? (I lie; I'm sure it will be.)
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Wednesday and Thursday were brutal at work, and both nights I went home with a killer migraine. I vaped both nights and it helped immensely--I actually felt really, really good after vaping last night. I'd vaped more than I normally do, just a bit, and I was sooooo not sober but oh, man, I felt great. My stomach had been bothering me all day and it stopped, my head didn't hurt, and I just felt happy and relaxed and giggly.
Today I got the Botox injections, and that really sucked because they always hurt and by the time Dr. S was done I had a brewing migraine. Fortunately he gave me a new scrip of dilaudid and I got it filled and took one, so that's better.
The problem with all of this is that I have to cut down ibuprofen drastically, or cut it out entirely. I'm pretty certain that the stomach issues I've been having for the last few weeks are due to the ibuprofen, or at least they're not being helped by it. But I've been taking so much ibuprofen for so long that I'm going to rebound from it until it clears out of my system, and I don't know how long that takes. I know caffeine takes three days, but I don't know how long it takes to recover from rebound headaches caused by lack of ibuprofen. Anyone?
So I'm really trying to cut down. Dr. S gave me a refill on the dilaudid, and a larger scrip for tramadol, and I'm hoping that if I'm careful I can use those sparingly over the next few weeks as I get used to not taking ibuprofen anymore. But I can't use either the dilaudid or the tramadol that often because my tolerance can only go up so much. Plus it's a lot easier to rebound from dilaudid than from ibuprofen, and the dilaudid rebound headaches are worse.
The timing on this is not ideal, since the Botox takes up to a week to really kick in and I would like to not be in rebound hell when I start the new position, but my stomach has vociferously protested the ibuprofen so I don't have much choice.
I have had five people ask me about positions over in my new org. Four of them were for the same role I'm getting, one was for something else. I feel kind of guilty about this, but I specifically passed on one person's resume for my equivalent role, because I think he's the best suited for it. I've worked with him since I got here and he honestly does my job better than some people on my team. (He's one of our vendors. Fortunately the new org uses a different vendor company so I'm not breaking the rules.)
Of the other three people, two of them could also do it but I don't think one of them would be a good fit personality-wise, and the other is rock solid and I feel guilty for not passing him on, but I like the guy I did refer better. The third person I haven't worked with enough to be able to give a reference.
But I did tell S (my new boss) that I've had a few people ask, and he said he'll keep them in mind if he gets more headcount.
The person I did refer for the open head (there is one) should be getting an interview loop, but he'll be up against two other candidates so I don't know who will get it. Obviously I hope it's him, but I've got no input beyond what I already did.
It's kind of depressing that so many people have asked me about this. In some cases it's because people would like to convert to FTE, which I get, but in all cases it's also something where people just don't want to work here anymore. The atmosphere is turning toxic, or at least it feels that way to me. Some of it is probably because there's a lot of change happening, and that always makes for a tense atmosphere, but some of it is just that the place feels like a sinking ship. Professionally it's not; I don't see my current group going away any time soon and hopefully it'll actually grow. But on a personal level there's just a lot of stress and tension and it's not good.
I have no idea what the new environment will be like. I do know they put a lot of emphasis on people fitting well into the team and being able to work together; my second interview was all about making sure I would be comfortable with the team and they with me. So in that regard I'm hopeful it'll be better. Work-wise, I'm still not sure what to expect.
Buuuut if I hate it, I can start looking again after about six months.
Otherstuff: I ordered the chair I'd been thinking about. I did not actually sit in it first, for which my dad gave me grief this morning, but I actually had some valid reasons:
1. I've read multiple reviews of it online and they all raved about it.
2. I had a friend personally recommend it; she works from home, spends 12+ hours at the computer, and says it's great. She's had hers a few years now and no signs of wear.
3. It's a Herman Miller chair, and they are phenomenal for ergonomics. We used to have Herman Miller chairs when I was at E.* and they were amazingly comfortable, as well as infinitely adjustable. I've wanted another one since. The model I got is actually more ergonomic and adjustable than the one I had at E.*, so I am pretty optimistic that it'll work out for me.
And if it doesn't, I ordered it from Design Within Reach and they have a 30-day return policy. I'm waiting for a call from the guy who is supposed to schedule delivery for it. Clearly I'll need to be home, as I do not want to carry this giant thing up the stairs myself, and I don't know if assembly is required or not.
I've actually only taken ibuprofen once today, in the morning. I've had to take oxycodone since then, but only one dose, and I'm doing okay. So this might not be as terrible as I feared? (I lie; I'm sure it will be.)
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