sigh
I...did not have the greatest day today. It started okay, but after the dog and I got back from our walk it kind of went downhill. Long story short I had a panic attack, which I've not had in months and months. I'm not sure if it was due to the lower dose of risperidone, the upcoming vacation, hormones, or a combination of all of the above, but I was not a happybecc.
After a bit I managed to get up and moving and went out to pick up my dilaudid and tramadol scrips, and I got those filled, and was then going to get my distance glasses except for the part where I almost threw up in the car. I have no idea what brought that on, but I felt pretty terrible, so I opted to just come home and lie down. The nausea's better now but my head hurts; I'm hoping the nausea and the panic attack weren't some weird aura for a migraine, because that would suck.
Meanwhile someone left me a comment asking for access to college_boys, the Adam & Gil journal I started a while back. I granted them access and on a whim started rereading and I can barely get through it due to the horrific abuse of passive voice. What even was I thinking? Oh right, I wasn't. Sigh. Maybe if I ever get space on my writing plate I'll rewrite some of it, but probably not.
Tomorrow I am getting my hair colored, and my face waxed, and I'll pick up my glasses and try and do the laundry I didn't get to today. Thursday I think I have a manicure, and Friday I have a pedicure unless those are reversed; I can't remember which is which day. Friday I'm also getting my hair cut. So I will be a pretty princess for the trip.
I have all my pills ready except for two scrips I have to pick up tomorrow, and I have to charge my computer and charge/sync my iPod, and charge my headphone batteries (noise-canceling) and other stuff but a lot of that can wait.
I'm not ready but I think by Saturday morning I might be. I hope!
Also it's been really hot here and I am not looking forward to going to hotter and more humid weather. I am, however, fervently grateful we have the heat pump because my house is lovely and cool, bordering on a little cold at times. I think the thermostat is set to 70. We'll probably turn up the temp a bit when we leave, maybe set it to like 76 or something.
Meds stuff: I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to taper down to 3mg on the risperidone. I'm not going to even try until we get back from NC, obviously, but I am noticing a bit more anxiety lately and of course there was the panic attack earlier today. If things start getting worse I'll go back up to 5mg. I just wish the thought of going back up to 5mg didn't feel like a personal failure. Which is bullshit and I know it's bullshit but there you have it.
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After a bit I managed to get up and moving and went out to pick up my dilaudid and tramadol scrips, and I got those filled, and was then going to get my distance glasses except for the part where I almost threw up in the car. I have no idea what brought that on, but I felt pretty terrible, so I opted to just come home and lie down. The nausea's better now but my head hurts; I'm hoping the nausea and the panic attack weren't some weird aura for a migraine, because that would suck.
Meanwhile someone left me a comment asking for access to college_boys, the Adam & Gil journal I started a while back. I granted them access and on a whim started rereading and I can barely get through it due to the horrific abuse of passive voice. What even was I thinking? Oh right, I wasn't. Sigh. Maybe if I ever get space on my writing plate I'll rewrite some of it, but probably not.
Tomorrow I am getting my hair colored, and my face waxed, and I'll pick up my glasses and try and do the laundry I didn't get to today. Thursday I think I have a manicure, and Friday I have a pedicure unless those are reversed; I can't remember which is which day. Friday I'm also getting my hair cut. So I will be a pretty princess for the trip.
I have all my pills ready except for two scrips I have to pick up tomorrow, and I have to charge my computer and charge/sync my iPod, and charge my headphone batteries (noise-canceling) and other stuff but a lot of that can wait.
I'm not ready but I think by Saturday morning I might be. I hope!
Also it's been really hot here and I am not looking forward to going to hotter and more humid weather. I am, however, fervently grateful we have the heat pump because my house is lovely and cool, bordering on a little cold at times. I think the thermostat is set to 70. We'll probably turn up the temp a bit when we leave, maybe set it to like 76 or something.
Meds stuff: I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to taper down to 3mg on the risperidone. I'm not going to even try until we get back from NC, obviously, but I am noticing a bit more anxiety lately and of course there was the panic attack earlier today. If things start getting worse I'll go back up to 5mg. I just wish the thought of going back up to 5mg didn't feel like a personal failure. Which is bullshit and I know it's bullshit but there you have it.
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