V-day, Ypsi hopefuls, and 5 calls
tomorrow is the worse day to be single ever its valentines day! I have no valentine, i want a special someone to be mine, but whatever, i bought cnady to pass out to everyone so no one left out, umm yeah.
So some tim ein march is the ypsi comp. and i'm hoping my parents will allow me to go on saturday, i really wanna see the new game, and i think 279 will be there and that means JP who is awesome too bad he lives in ohio, but hey hes still awesome! brandon said last year he was gonna go to ypsi but i doubt that anyhwo i'm hoping to go and on the way maybe i could make a stop at U of M....tee hee!
So i wandered my ass to my cell and fliped it open to fin i had five missed calls, 2 from liz and 3 from kari, 3 calls from kari is a big deal...i hope everything is alright, maybe her and brian broke up or got into a fight, that would suck balls, i know liz is just missing travis and i dont blame her but she really doesnt need to act like he died, hes just in another country for the next 10 days, so yeah i wanna an SO but who? i hate holly boys, waterford blows and clarkston doesnt work out, oh and ohio really is for lovers, many lovers lol.... gee golly batman what else is left hmm i do like Sean...hes quite the comedian, i like funny people , yeah... a film major that a whole new interest from any one i've ever met, its new i like that, i'd like to visit him some day, again maybe on the way to or from to ypsi....yeah i guess i could blab about nothing or i could write that i was watching under the tuscan sun on abc family and they cut out a whole bunch of parts or like cruel intention were they cut out the two girls making out, i hate censorship i think its dumb and should die, why cant breast be shown on tv? who are they hurting? i dont mean hey lets do the weather in nude but come on they cut out the word dick, whats with that bs? ack i have to work tomorrow.... another day of single hell and i get to celebrate by kissing ass of stingy couple celebrating their love, or their getting lucky, its been a long time since i've had sex like almost 8 months, thats crazy, i dont say this as an ad for it i just found that interesting, and to top it off matt, is a complete stranger to me, hes a pot head, thats turned even more dickweed, and thinks it would be awesome to bring his new gf up to my work, that i dont care about but i think he only does it to see my reaction, for gods sake i loved him enough to die for him, and now i dont even know him, that was less than 8 months ago that it blew up, he seemed over it today but hes like a damn woman and could hold it against me tomorrow, i wish he would stop putting his tamponn in sideways, the only reason i talk to him is for lack of anything better, and the fact that i'm so damn lonely, but i get this sould stopping coldness when we speak, its like i cut myself off to reduce the risk of actually wanting to be friends, but we never will be, as long as he a dumbass druggie i dont want any thing to do with him other than cold conversation.
So i'm sick of snow, i want spring, i heart spring, ack coldness, i am so freezing my butt off damn i wish i could fall alseep but as of now i'm feeling like i could run amile in the nude when its snowing, on second thought i feel like just jogging, that cold nude thing isnt working for me, so i always think about things that i shouldnt like i find i occasionally dwell on the lack of sparks with jason, logicly i know it wasnt my fault, but emotionally i feel like i let him down, but its true there werent any sparks the first kiss was just a kiss, i want nerve tingleing, knee shaking, out of breath, never want to forget, sparks, i want to feel their kiss for days, i want to smile to my self for the rest of my life when i think of that first kiss, and so far neil is the only one, i still smile at how accidental our fist kiss was, i went for his cheek and he turned, i think i turned a hundred shades of red when i walked to class, god i was a freshman then, i feel so old, i have 57 school days left until i'm out for good.... i dont even have a plan yet!
so last week this little thing made my day: i was sitting in class wondering how many other wanted to die of boredom, when this guy chad leaned over with his headphone and said listen, i put it to my ear and it was " I must be running out of luck because your just not drunk enough to FUCK!" I started laughing my ass of and chad replies with its written onn your folder, and it was i had written it on my folder the week before. i just thought it was so cool someone i hardly know took notice in me, and something i found amusing.... is that pathetic or do i have the full right to smile about that? ehh doesnt really matter it was nice for me so you can all bite me! wow i have a horrible peverted mind.....teehee!
Well i feel that i should end this dribble drabble of nonsense, and yada yada yada.....So long, farewell, good day, peace, out later ETC....
So some tim ein march is the ypsi comp. and i'm hoping my parents will allow me to go on saturday, i really wanna see the new game, and i think 279 will be there and that means JP who is awesome too bad he lives in ohio, but hey hes still awesome! brandon said last year he was gonna go to ypsi but i doubt that anyhwo i'm hoping to go and on the way maybe i could make a stop at U of M....tee hee!
So i wandered my ass to my cell and fliped it open to fin i had five missed calls, 2 from liz and 3 from kari, 3 calls from kari is a big deal...i hope everything is alright, maybe her and brian broke up or got into a fight, that would suck balls, i know liz is just missing travis and i dont blame her but she really doesnt need to act like he died, hes just in another country for the next 10 days, so yeah i wanna an SO but who? i hate holly boys, waterford blows and clarkston doesnt work out, oh and ohio really is for lovers, many lovers lol.... gee golly batman what else is left hmm i do like Sean...hes quite the comedian, i like funny people , yeah... a film major that a whole new interest from any one i've ever met, its new i like that, i'd like to visit him some day, again maybe on the way to or from to ypsi....yeah i guess i could blab about nothing or i could write that i was watching under the tuscan sun on abc family and they cut out a whole bunch of parts or like cruel intention were they cut out the two girls making out, i hate censorship i think its dumb and should die, why cant breast be shown on tv? who are they hurting? i dont mean hey lets do the weather in nude but come on they cut out the word dick, whats with that bs? ack i have to work tomorrow.... another day of single hell and i get to celebrate by kissing ass of stingy couple celebrating their love, or their getting lucky, its been a long time since i've had sex like almost 8 months, thats crazy, i dont say this as an ad for it i just found that interesting, and to top it off matt, is a complete stranger to me, hes a pot head, thats turned even more dickweed, and thinks it would be awesome to bring his new gf up to my work, that i dont care about but i think he only does it to see my reaction, for gods sake i loved him enough to die for him, and now i dont even know him, that was less than 8 months ago that it blew up, he seemed over it today but hes like a damn woman and could hold it against me tomorrow, i wish he would stop putting his tamponn in sideways, the only reason i talk to him is for lack of anything better, and the fact that i'm so damn lonely, but i get this sould stopping coldness when we speak, its like i cut myself off to reduce the risk of actually wanting to be friends, but we never will be, as long as he a dumbass druggie i dont want any thing to do with him other than cold conversation.
So i'm sick of snow, i want spring, i heart spring, ack coldness, i am so freezing my butt off damn i wish i could fall alseep but as of now i'm feeling like i could run amile in the nude when its snowing, on second thought i feel like just jogging, that cold nude thing isnt working for me, so i always think about things that i shouldnt like i find i occasionally dwell on the lack of sparks with jason, logicly i know it wasnt my fault, but emotionally i feel like i let him down, but its true there werent any sparks the first kiss was just a kiss, i want nerve tingleing, knee shaking, out of breath, never want to forget, sparks, i want to feel their kiss for days, i want to smile to my self for the rest of my life when i think of that first kiss, and so far neil is the only one, i still smile at how accidental our fist kiss was, i went for his cheek and he turned, i think i turned a hundred shades of red when i walked to class, god i was a freshman then, i feel so old, i have 57 school days left until i'm out for good.... i dont even have a plan yet!
so last week this little thing made my day: i was sitting in class wondering how many other wanted to die of boredom, when this guy chad leaned over with his headphone and said listen, i put it to my ear and it was " I must be running out of luck because your just not drunk enough to FUCK!" I started laughing my ass of and chad replies with its written onn your folder, and it was i had written it on my folder the week before. i just thought it was so cool someone i hardly know took notice in me, and something i found amusing.... is that pathetic or do i have the full right to smile about that? ehh doesnt really matter it was nice for me so you can all bite me! wow i have a horrible peverted mind.....teehee!
Well i feel that i should end this dribble drabble of nonsense, and yada yada yada.....So long, farewell, good day, peace, out later ETC....