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Markus and I didn't have the best night. Here is what concluded out of it:
To: Markus
Subject: What I couldn't say...
E-mail:
I thought I knew myself better than I'm finding out...I always told myself that I wouldn't be someone who felt like she wasn't spending enough time with her boyfriend. I always thought I would be the one who felt so smothered like you've been feeling b/c in all my other relationships (what few there were) I was smothered, so I'm sorry for being too....much. I also promised myself I was never going to cry over a boy, but that's changed, too. ha. I will do anything I can to fix....or change whatever is it I'm doing wrong, or not doing, but I want you to be happy, Markus. And if you're not content with the relationship like you said, then something's not right. I'll work on not being so pushy, and the whole seeing each other thing should get better with time...
The past four months have been the happiest I've ever been. I hadn't realized that until recently. And I'm sorry there's never anything for us to do...I just don't think there is much to do anyway. Besides playing video games or watching a movie, and that gets really old. I'm also sorry that I'm e-mailing you to say all of this, but I can think much better when I don't have to talk. My head thinks better when I write. Dangit Markus...I'm a bitch. I'm my mom. But at least I can express my feelings. She can't....
Anyway...whatever is bugging you, or whatever needs to happen, can happen. I love you more than ANYTHING Markus. And I plan on staying by your side as long as you let me. I'm here to talk about whatever, whenever, and when you're ready. Sweet dreams and I'll talk to you on Friday. Oh...it would be nice if you could come over to Nanny's with me and meet my cousin Jennifer while she's here. They leave on Sunday, so...when you have time.
Love you.
aly
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Good night everyone. That's all I can say.
*aly*
To: Markus
Subject: What I couldn't say...
E-mail:
I thought I knew myself better than I'm finding out...I always told myself that I wouldn't be someone who felt like she wasn't spending enough time with her boyfriend. I always thought I would be the one who felt so smothered like you've been feeling b/c in all my other relationships (what few there were) I was smothered, so I'm sorry for being too....much. I also promised myself I was never going to cry over a boy, but that's changed, too. ha. I will do anything I can to fix....or change whatever is it I'm doing wrong, or not doing, but I want you to be happy, Markus. And if you're not content with the relationship like you said, then something's not right. I'll work on not being so pushy, and the whole seeing each other thing should get better with time...
The past four months have been the happiest I've ever been. I hadn't realized that until recently. And I'm sorry there's never anything for us to do...I just don't think there is much to do anyway. Besides playing video games or watching a movie, and that gets really old. I'm also sorry that I'm e-mailing you to say all of this, but I can think much better when I don't have to talk. My head thinks better when I write. Dangit Markus...I'm a bitch. I'm my mom. But at least I can express my feelings. She can't....
Anyway...whatever is bugging you, or whatever needs to happen, can happen. I love you more than ANYTHING Markus. And I plan on staying by your side as long as you let me. I'm here to talk about whatever, whenever, and when you're ready. Sweet dreams and I'll talk to you on Friday. Oh...it would be nice if you could come over to Nanny's with me and meet my cousin Jennifer while she's here. They leave on Sunday, so...when you have time.
Love you.
aly
END E-MAIL
Good night everyone. That's all I can say.
*aly*