yay!
Markus and I are like...BETTER THAN EVER! He apologized for being so...rude lately, and he told me it was NOT my fault at ALL, and he was sorry that it was like that, and he would have told me if it was something I was doing, and I felt so much better, and tonight...was great.
It was the first time he had really been at my house since we had talked and made everything better, and it went SO well. I think we really needed what happened tonight. We were physical, and I was comfortable with it, and I think he was too, and that's the first time since a few weeks ago. I'm glad it's been a long time, though. I think if we're only like...imtimate once every few weeks it would mean a lot more, but it's so hard to keep away from him! He's so...mmm...he's so sexy. Like...really. He is. I didn't think I would ever be saying that about I guy I liked, and was actually dating, but omg...his body. haha. He has the cutest, toned stomach, and his arms are all veiny...like bass player arms, and his hair is kinda shaggy, and his legs aren't too hairy...neither is his chest. He's just luscious. Wow. I've never thought about all that before. haha. That's weird, but I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Laying there beside him tonight, I just realized how I was taking advantage of it. Like...Markus and I could have never taken the chance and told each other how we felt. Like...I KNEW from the start it was different with Markus, but I still didn't trust myself for some reason. Maybe I was just scared, but from the beginning we were getting into a serious relationship and we knew it. We both were like okay, so I've never been in a serious relationship, so I don't know what to do, and that's kinda how it started. I actually made the mistake of telling him it was weird to kiss him one night when we first started dating. lol. I was like Markus...it's weird to kiss you. I was like it's not BAD, but it's weird. haha. I don't know. I was just used to like...being his best friend and caring about him a lot, not...kissing him and caring about him AND being his best friend, but now I kiss him every chance I get. He's so wonderful and smart and nice, and caring, and thoughtful, and AHHH! Everything I've ever wanted in a boyfriend/best friend/ and maybe future husband.
By the way...so Ashli is due to have her baby is August, right, and she and Isaac we going to wait a while to get married, but instead, they decided they're going to go ahead and get married so if Isaac goes off to boot camp soon, Ashli can go, too. Wives are allowed to go and stuff. That's all so weird. I don't know what to think about it all. It's all so quick, and they're MY AGE! They're actually younger b/c Isaac turns 17 today, the 3rd, and Ashli turns 17 on the 6th. Wow. That's SO...AH! I can't believe it. That just blows my mind...I never thought it would be like this. Espically with the people I hang out with.
I cut all my hair off today...I'll show you a picture if you want. Maybe in the next entry. I need to upload it to a site that you can upload pictures to. haha. Makes sense! Okay, so it's like 3am now, so NIGHT! Peace dawgs! haha. ;o)
-rock on-
*aly*
It was the first time he had really been at my house since we had talked and made everything better, and it went SO well. I think we really needed what happened tonight. We were physical, and I was comfortable with it, and I think he was too, and that's the first time since a few weeks ago. I'm glad it's been a long time, though. I think if we're only like...imtimate once every few weeks it would mean a lot more, but it's so hard to keep away from him! He's so...mmm...he's so sexy. Like...really. He is. I didn't think I would ever be saying that about I guy I liked, and was actually dating, but omg...his body. haha. He has the cutest, toned stomach, and his arms are all veiny...like bass player arms, and his hair is kinda shaggy, and his legs aren't too hairy...neither is his chest. He's just luscious. Wow. I've never thought about all that before. haha. That's weird, but I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Laying there beside him tonight, I just realized how I was taking advantage of it. Like...Markus and I could have never taken the chance and told each other how we felt. Like...I KNEW from the start it was different with Markus, but I still didn't trust myself for some reason. Maybe I was just scared, but from the beginning we were getting into a serious relationship and we knew it. We both were like okay, so I've never been in a serious relationship, so I don't know what to do, and that's kinda how it started. I actually made the mistake of telling him it was weird to kiss him one night when we first started dating. lol. I was like Markus...it's weird to kiss you. I was like it's not BAD, but it's weird. haha. I don't know. I was just used to like...being his best friend and caring about him a lot, not...kissing him and caring about him AND being his best friend, but now I kiss him every chance I get. He's so wonderful and smart and nice, and caring, and thoughtful, and AHHH! Everything I've ever wanted in a boyfriend/best friend/ and maybe future husband.
By the way...so Ashli is due to have her baby is August, right, and she and Isaac we going to wait a while to get married, but instead, they decided they're going to go ahead and get married so if Isaac goes off to boot camp soon, Ashli can go, too. Wives are allowed to go and stuff. That's all so weird. I don't know what to think about it all. It's all so quick, and they're MY AGE! They're actually younger b/c Isaac turns 17 today, the 3rd, and Ashli turns 17 on the 6th. Wow. That's SO...AH! I can't believe it. That just blows my mind...I never thought it would be like this. Espically with the people I hang out with.
I cut all my hair off today...I'll show you a picture if you want. Maybe in the next entry. I need to upload it to a site that you can upload pictures to. haha. Makes sense! Okay, so it's like 3am now, so NIGHT! Peace dawgs! haha. ;o)
-rock on-
*aly*