i really do try to be enthused
Well, it sounds like my cousin Justin is getting engaged to his girlfriend Karyn. They've been dating... hmm, I don't even know how long. Quite a while. They went to school together at Ann Arbor and then Justin moved to Chicago and he's working for JP Morgan at some job (he actually just got a rather nice promotion and huge raise) and she's working on her PhD/masters in some kind of teaching at ISU. They see each other on weekends even though they're both really really busy. But I guess they're going to get married- technically I don't know that. He hasn't actually proposed but his mom (my aunt, Debbie) told my mom that he is going to propose. And I'm not supposed to tell anyone that I know- but seriously- no one that reads this knows my cousin or his girlfriend so I think I ought to be safe. Shhh. don't tell.
So I'm trying to really feel genuinely happy for him. Don't get me wrong, I am glad that he's with a really nice girl that he obviously cares about and I'm glad that a long distance relationship is working out, because that can really suck. My parents went out and got a bottle of champaign and 2 glasses. But as happy as I really am, part of my stomach is just clenched up. Justin is 1 year and 2 months older than me and Karyn is just about my age give or take a couple months. It's just kind of hard. I've seen a lot of people who I know get engaged and married- Joyce, Shauna, Justin K, even Nikki and Heather and Anna who I don't know particularly well. And Christina who I was such good friends with growing up, and Emily S from ΣAI, and Maria from work and the list just goes on. Frell's mom and dad are both getting remarried next year. My mom was already married when she was my age. So yeah... I'm happy for Justin. I'm sure I'm not jealous... just happy. Mmhmm.
I'm going to go eat some ice cream. I like ice cream. It never fails to make me feel better or happier or whatever. Not that I'm anything other than happy. I need no cheering up. Just happy... good for Justin and Karyn.
Anyhow, ice cream time- I brought a McFlurry home from work. So yep- ice cream. And maybe a piece of the cinnamon apple cake my mom made yesterday. That sounds fabulous.
So I'm trying to really feel genuinely happy for him. Don't get me wrong, I am glad that he's with a really nice girl that he obviously cares about and I'm glad that a long distance relationship is working out, because that can really suck. My parents went out and got a bottle of champaign and 2 glasses. But as happy as I really am, part of my stomach is just clenched up. Justin is 1 year and 2 months older than me and Karyn is just about my age give or take a couple months. It's just kind of hard. I've seen a lot of people who I know get engaged and married- Joyce, Shauna, Justin K, even Nikki and Heather and Anna who I don't know particularly well. And Christina who I was such good friends with growing up, and Emily S from ΣAI, and Maria from work and the list just goes on. Frell's mom and dad are both getting remarried next year. My mom was already married when she was my age. So yeah... I'm happy for Justin. I'm sure I'm not jealous... just happy. Mmhmm.
I'm going to go eat some ice cream. I like ice cream. It never fails to make me feel better or happier or whatever. Not that I'm anything other than happy. I need no cheering up. Just happy... good for Justin and Karyn.
Anyhow, ice cream time- I brought a McFlurry home from work. So yep- ice cream. And maybe a piece of the cinnamon apple cake my mom made yesterday. That sounds fabulous.