or of what i view, my view of everything has become so altered its like it started out as an andy warhol painting of a fucking soup can and ended up being dali, and everything is distorted and manipulated and not what it is supposed to be ( Read more... )

Journals are good. Looking back through all the years and it's almost as if I can draw you out a chart of ones cycling.. I mean, can't you see it, me standing there with a pointer next to my power point presentation. I am like, alright here is when I am in manic state, and heeeeeeerre is when I fall into a depression, and this right here is Laura's ( Read more... )

I tried so hard to say to my significant other how I feel.

He just did not get it.

Is it me?
I DON'T KNOW
but i will show you down hill skiing.

I will watch out for the trees and nothing else.
SO FUCK YOU ALL!

It is a multitude of things which have to happen to make me feel anything.. which is a lie, I feel too much and just hide it because I have never found an individual who put this feeling on a pedestal as I do, because I do, just thought I'd let you know. What I feel, I believe, is this fantastic creature reacting and creating everything and ( Read more... )

So, within the last couple of hours I tried to make snicker doodles, tried to fill my glass up with water and put up a poster. All somewhat easy tasks.. First, my snicker doodle recipe was from 250 million years ago, I wanted a modern day cookie but ended up with pangaea. That was very exciting. It was my history lesson for the evening.. somehow. ( Read more... )

I am hoping that this fathers day my dad will finally learn that david bowie is pronounced bo-e not boo-e. He will never learn. It makes me think I am adopted ( Read more... )

this feeling is bittersweet. i feel like i am standing alone with every direction pulling. i know i will be okay. i am satisfied with my decisions. i am okay with the status of my life. i tell you bittersweet. where i stand is where i stand, where i am going is where i am going, and thats that.

sometimes i cannot even believe how much of an introvert. do i enjoy interactions with humans, absolutely. but there is something about, i dont know, the way my blood pumps and the way my body accepts oxygen... i just want to have it for myself. it is so strange: honestly knowing that i will live and die alone. its not anything tragic, im not ( Read more... )

i have the most beautiful kitty! i am sure all of your kitties are adequate in cuteness but mine exceeds all beauty expectations. goddamn i am fucking bored right now. i hate watching tv. i am just going to spend the rest of the evening drinking koolaid and doin laundry. exciting!!111

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