anna decides other people should hurry up and make her a supermodel.
ya know, i'm getting pretty sick of feeling shitty all the time... i find myself reading happy posts and getting pissed off, simply because they're happy and i'm not. and the really crap thing is that i could be just as happy as they are if i just let myself. so i think my point is, i'm going to try harder to be a happy person. not one of those annoying bouncy ditzy people, but just content and stuff. starting today. i'm going to feel good about the presentation evening even if i'm over or underdressed. and i'm going to force myself to believe i look good, even if i actually look like a piece of roadkill. however i will call some people to try to work out just how formally everyone else is dressing cause i really don't want to look out of place or anything. i wish i had more nice clothes that aren't really really fancy but are really classy. damn rey for having people to buy her clothes n stuff (wuv you...). anyway, i hope i can find something sexy and cool...
and now i'm annoyed because i am feeling generally pretty good about my body and everything, but i have no new clothes, and i know i'm being materialistic and everything, but hey, i'm a teenager. i'm entitled to it sometimes. i blame my society for making me this way. but my point is, i feel like i have nothing that suits the occaision and that annoys me. so i'm going to call people at some point and see what i can do with what i have. hey dure! find me someone like katie to take me shopping and tell me i'm pretty!
damnit, i'm ready to be a supermodel, so why doesn't someone come up and give me a goddamn contract?!?
(lol)
oh, and one more thing. i wrote myself this fantastic notebook full of timetables for the next few weeks with exactly what i'm going to study and all that. and it's got all these funny little headings like "anna studies today" and "today, anna is godly (in the morning) and goes churching. in the afternoon anna is devillish and makes mischief!". so that should keep me entertained while i try to study and stuff. apart from on "anna's fantabulistic day off, when she can do anything she wants".
and now i'm annoyed because i am feeling generally pretty good about my body and everything, but i have no new clothes, and i know i'm being materialistic and everything, but hey, i'm a teenager. i'm entitled to it sometimes. i blame my society for making me this way. but my point is, i feel like i have nothing that suits the occaision and that annoys me. so i'm going to call people at some point and see what i can do with what i have. hey dure! find me someone like katie to take me shopping and tell me i'm pretty!
damnit, i'm ready to be a supermodel, so why doesn't someone come up and give me a goddamn contract?!?
(lol)
oh, and one more thing. i wrote myself this fantastic notebook full of timetables for the next few weeks with exactly what i'm going to study and all that. and it's got all these funny little headings like "anna studies today" and "today, anna is godly (in the morning) and goes churching. in the afternoon anna is devillish and makes mischief!". so that should keep me entertained while i try to study and stuff. apart from on "anna's fantabulistic day off, when she can do anything she wants".