well that sucks
i cant sleep again... its fucking 3:24 in the morning and I have to be awake enough to talk to the Social Security people at 9:00. how am i going to do that??? I am starting to feel sleepy, but I dont wanna sleep.
i am starting to loath this diary-thing. it just seems like it's getting me into more trouble then what its worth. i might as well stop writing in here and just use the plain ol' pen and paper journal that ria bought me *hugs*. i know my mom worries about me and cares about me, but lets face it, she's not here. its not like i blame anything on her either... i dont at all. i'm just going through a lot and its the only way i can find to cope with it. its the only thing i can do right now.. its not easy.. believe me. i wouldnt do this.. i wouldnt do it at all if i had a choice. no one would chose to feel the way that i do sometimes..
i miss it just being okay.. when things were okay....
-WoLf
i am starting to loath this diary-thing. it just seems like it's getting me into more trouble then what its worth. i might as well stop writing in here and just use the plain ol' pen and paper journal that ria bought me *hugs*. i know my mom worries about me and cares about me, but lets face it, she's not here. its not like i blame anything on her either... i dont at all. i'm just going through a lot and its the only way i can find to cope with it. its the only thing i can do right now.. its not easy.. believe me. i wouldnt do this.. i wouldnt do it at all if i had a choice. no one would chose to feel the way that i do sometimes..
i miss it just being okay.. when things were okay....
-WoLf