in continues
so yeah... to break it down ive been hanging out with no one but my girlfriend for like a year, and its awesome. its what i wanted.. to get away from all the paranoia and shitty partys full of extremely questionable people. and not only that, but it would better me as a person cuz id no longer be sitting here all night thinking way too much about shit that just bothered me. now im like occupied... so to break it down, i dont think ive talked shit about anyone in a long time.. ive certainly never tried to physically harm anyone, but ill admit, i did run my mouth... but i get this feeling that.. some people have still tried to get at me.. even after im friendly to them and just... yeah, straight up friendly. so why do i feel like they are still trying to poison me??? why does this get them off??? do they enjoy taking advantage of someone who trusts them? who has no desire to hurt them? i just think people should be more thoughtful, or caring when it comes to doing irreversable damage to someone in the name of humor or.. pride.. i think its more in the name of ignorance, but heyyyy dont hold it against me. im not paranoid.. and im not sure how to react to this latest attack. people are so shadey.. only fake, lying cowards use poison with a smile.. especially against someone whos not truely an enemy. its just... not fucking right.. and if karma exists i assume the reprocussions are gonna suck.. if karama doesnt exist, oh well. im not gonna do anything anything in return.. cuz thats never the game i wanted to play. people just take things too far.. cuz like i said at the beginning.. i hang out with my girlfriend constantly, night and day... so if you poison me, youre poisoning her.. and when it goes that far.. i can no longer just passively go along with it and just swallow and smile. i did nothing to you, she especially did nothing to you. get a clue, get a heart, and get yourselves a girlfriend.. stop watching UFC and getting drunk everyday.. stop gamling all your money away, stop stealing shit that isnt yours and pawning it or whatever... god, some people are really terrible. its like they get off on hurting people. blah whatever.. i just had to express these ideas to get them off my mind, cuz honestly im too afraid to tell my girlfriend.. i dont wanna tell her that some of my so called friends are really playing extremely disgusting tricks on us... i shouldnt have to tell her somtehing like that... we mind our own business.. hot damn blah blah dont fuck around.