FullHead...
Will apologise in advance if this entry is a bit all over the place - it reflects the state of my head at the moment!
Don't really know where to begin today, as there is so much in my head, and i know my current state of mind, caused by stress, tiredness and general not-knowing-whats-going-on-ness will mean that i am unable to do justice to most of the things i want to talk about. Plus being tired is meaning that i have to re-type every other word, due to mistakes, so i am bound to get fed up shortly and give this up for another day.
Thursday morning i went on the train to see Cat at her parents house, the 5 and a half hour journey both ways was pretty uneventful, but i did manage to get a bit of my coursework done, which is something. It was a bit surreal to see her changing nappies and feeding little Sam, but he's an adorable baby even if a little unexpected. Cat was a bit blue on the first night i was there, which i suppose is understandable, but she seems to bearing up quite well. One thing she needs to learn though is to think of herself a bit more. Not something i need to say about a lot of people - but i couldn't bear the thought of her running herself into the ground and missing out on all the things that she has looked forward to, just because she didn't take enoug help. Fortunately, i think that there are enough people around her to prod her occasionally and remind her to get some sleep / have food / relax! I don't think i will forget the look on her face when her mum suggested she give up orange juice for a while in case it was affecting the milk for the baby though :-)
Anyhow, i'm typing this to give myself a break from my coursework - though in my head i'm not really having a break at all. What with the deadline in 3 weeks and one essay not even started yet, and the other with 1000 words to go before its finished, i have gone into that manic state where i acn't concentrate on anything but the essays. NB - this unfortunately does not equate in any way to my productivity on them. Hence in work i am having increased difficulty with the 'hang around doing not very much' that they have me stuck with. It seems so daft when i have other things to be doing.
I need to sort out my wages as well. Its a pain in the arse but it seems that i am doomed to never be in a job where the people in wages can just get it right first time. I need to find out what they think my monthly pay is first so i can work out why the 2 week amount they paid me last week was as little as it was. I think that they have worked out my wages based on the part time hours at their office, which is 18 hours a week, exaclty 50% of the full time hours. Whereas, i am doing 21.75 hours a week, which is 60% of the full time hours. There is also the possibility that the payment was just a one off sum to ensure i had money and is not proportional at all at the moment, but i shall have to wait until i can talk to them and find out.
I'm fed up of having a head full of stuff to contend with. Its not like its about to disappear either. Once this coursework is out of the way, i wil have to start seriously attending to these appliactions for my solicitor training. And thats just another can of worms...
Don't really know where to begin today, as there is so much in my head, and i know my current state of mind, caused by stress, tiredness and general not-knowing-whats-going-on-ness will mean that i am unable to do justice to most of the things i want to talk about. Plus being tired is meaning that i have to re-type every other word, due to mistakes, so i am bound to get fed up shortly and give this up for another day.
Thursday morning i went on the train to see Cat at her parents house, the 5 and a half hour journey both ways was pretty uneventful, but i did manage to get a bit of my coursework done, which is something. It was a bit surreal to see her changing nappies and feeding little Sam, but he's an adorable baby even if a little unexpected. Cat was a bit blue on the first night i was there, which i suppose is understandable, but she seems to bearing up quite well. One thing she needs to learn though is to think of herself a bit more. Not something i need to say about a lot of people - but i couldn't bear the thought of her running herself into the ground and missing out on all the things that she has looked forward to, just because she didn't take enoug help. Fortunately, i think that there are enough people around her to prod her occasionally and remind her to get some sleep / have food / relax! I don't think i will forget the look on her face when her mum suggested she give up orange juice for a while in case it was affecting the milk for the baby though :-)
Anyhow, i'm typing this to give myself a break from my coursework - though in my head i'm not really having a break at all. What with the deadline in 3 weeks and one essay not even started yet, and the other with 1000 words to go before its finished, i have gone into that manic state where i acn't concentrate on anything but the essays. NB - this unfortunately does not equate in any way to my productivity on them. Hence in work i am having increased difficulty with the 'hang around doing not very much' that they have me stuck with. It seems so daft when i have other things to be doing.
I need to sort out my wages as well. Its a pain in the arse but it seems that i am doomed to never be in a job where the people in wages can just get it right first time. I need to find out what they think my monthly pay is first so i can work out why the 2 week amount they paid me last week was as little as it was. I think that they have worked out my wages based on the part time hours at their office, which is 18 hours a week, exaclty 50% of the full time hours. Whereas, i am doing 21.75 hours a week, which is 60% of the full time hours. There is also the possibility that the payment was just a one off sum to ensure i had money and is not proportional at all at the moment, but i shall have to wait until i can talk to them and find out.
I'm fed up of having a head full of stuff to contend with. Its not like its about to disappear either. Once this coursework is out of the way, i wil have to start seriously attending to these appliactions for my solicitor training. And thats just another can of worms...