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you realize you love someone only when it hurts, only when so much pain is shoved into your already messed up head.. your this empty bottomless pit and you just try to shove all these feelings into you..just to feel something. and its tearing you apart.. maybe i never loved you. because hell it hurts, but im getting so use to that pain that your not even the one im thinking about at night anymore..your not the one i see when i look up in the sky and think..god i need them so much. sometimes when your just trying to feel something from somebody..you actually do. and then they just disapear and here you are.. left with another void. like those big potholes on the road.. you try to drive over them,but you hit them and it still hurts. and over time, they get worse and worse. not to menchin its raining outside. you can't even see the windsheild, to the firmiliar landscape ahead. you no longer know anybody. your just passing threw.. car by car.. road by road..before you know it, your somewhere else.. you know longer even recognize yourself..