a single thought
when i grow up i want to be vengeance.
i want the good to be praised and the evil to be destroyed. i'd particularly like it if this could be accomplished without force; at least deadly force... but it seems human nature will not allow that. but if i kill, i can kill again, aqnd i may lose sight of my lofty goals. so i must try to manipulate reality through whatever holds i manage, slowly skewing people's paths to either success or ruin, depending on what they deserve. above all else i try to be a shelter for those who need it. it's been tough; ive had my share of demons lately, but i hope i do as well as i think, and that things will work out in the end.
i fear for my life, for my sanity... i can only hope that the disease of the world does not drive me to take lives, be it my own or another's. it's difficult to face, and i pray i never do, as i've said before, but i have more fear than ever that someone will break my rules and send me over an edge i can never reclaim.
i want the good to be praised and the evil to be destroyed. i'd particularly like it if this could be accomplished without force; at least deadly force... but it seems human nature will not allow that. but if i kill, i can kill again, aqnd i may lose sight of my lofty goals. so i must try to manipulate reality through whatever holds i manage, slowly skewing people's paths to either success or ruin, depending on what they deserve. above all else i try to be a shelter for those who need it. it's been tough; ive had my share of demons lately, but i hope i do as well as i think, and that things will work out in the end.
i fear for my life, for my sanity... i can only hope that the disease of the world does not drive me to take lives, be it my own or another's. it's difficult to face, and i pray i never do, as i've said before, but i have more fear than ever that someone will break my rules and send me over an edge i can never reclaim.