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I just spent a good hour or two updating the way my dumb journal looks. Dumb.
My body is officially in shock from having 1500 to 2000 calories less than what I'm used to. I caved tonight and had a bowl of granola an hour or so after I ate dinner. I'm mad at myself and also satisfied so I guess I'm okay with it.
My body test this morning on the wiifit was HIGHLY motivating!
8/13 - 32.32 BMI; 206 lbs. Yesterday I was at 210. I know four pounds seems fucking ridiculous, it is ridiculous, so I'm taking credit for some of it and giving most of the credit to the fact I'm no longer bloated from menstruating.
Today was really hard for me diet wise. I wanted to eat everything. And I did really good, minus the bowl of granola.
An lj friend of mine started a 30 day meme thingie. I'm going to do it too. I'm hoping it will get me back into the habit of posting. I don't think I have the energy to start it tonight but hopefully tomorrow.
Al and I got in a fight thing today. :( It was an intense conversation with frustrations. All of my friends are getting married or already are married and I got into my own head about it. So I asked him where he was with us, well I thought I asked him that but it was more like, "So you purposing soon or what?" All I wanted out of the convo was something like, "Baby there is no one else I want to be with. I'm not ready to get married right now, but I want to marry you some day." And I got something more like this, "Whoa wait what?! I don't know. I don't even think about stuff like that." And it was just all down hill from there. The conversation needed to be had, it just shouldn't have been had the way I had it. We're fine now and he finally said what I needed/wanted to here but there was a moment I thought we weren't going to make it out alive.
This post kind of sucks but whatever.
I'm going to watch some Oz and call it a night.
Also, I would like to make some new lj friends. If any of you can refer me to some cool peeps that would be awesome.
My body is officially in shock from having 1500 to 2000 calories less than what I'm used to. I caved tonight and had a bowl of granola an hour or so after I ate dinner. I'm mad at myself and also satisfied so I guess I'm okay with it.
My body test this morning on the wiifit was HIGHLY motivating!
8/13 - 32.32 BMI; 206 lbs. Yesterday I was at 210. I know four pounds seems fucking ridiculous, it is ridiculous, so I'm taking credit for some of it and giving most of the credit to the fact I'm no longer bloated from menstruating.
Today was really hard for me diet wise. I wanted to eat everything. And I did really good, minus the bowl of granola.
An lj friend of mine started a 30 day meme thingie. I'm going to do it too. I'm hoping it will get me back into the habit of posting. I don't think I have the energy to start it tonight but hopefully tomorrow.
Al and I got in a fight thing today. :( It was an intense conversation with frustrations. All of my friends are getting married or already are married and I got into my own head about it. So I asked him where he was with us, well I thought I asked him that but it was more like, "So you purposing soon or what?" All I wanted out of the convo was something like, "Baby there is no one else I want to be with. I'm not ready to get married right now, but I want to marry you some day." And I got something more like this, "Whoa wait what?! I don't know. I don't even think about stuff like that." And it was just all down hill from there. The conversation needed to be had, it just shouldn't have been had the way I had it. We're fine now and he finally said what I needed/wanted to here but there was a moment I thought we weren't going to make it out alive.
This post kind of sucks but whatever.
I'm going to watch some Oz and call it a night.
Also, I would like to make some new lj friends. If any of you can refer me to some cool peeps that would be awesome.