It's surprising how a sutured wound goes from gaping to a scar, nearly skipping over the scab phase entirely.

I took 3 weeks off from work. It put me in an awkward place financially... I had a ton of money saved up but after my ordeal, I felt benevolent and gave some dear friends of mine a few hundred bucks. Didn't factor into the costs of living ( Read more... )

So, I'm on my way home. Carrying a small child's rocking chair. I'm approaching the corner that I need to turn left on to reach my house. My place is 2 blocks down the street. The rest begins to get blurry.

I remember being the recipient of slurs. I turn around and look, and three young black men are on bicycles riding in my direction laughing and ( Read more... )

It's been a hot minute... About 15 or 16 years? I'm shocked that first, this site still exists, and second, that all my original posts are available. If I ever get the courage to read through them, I think it might give me some insight. But, not now. Now is not the time.

Right now is the time to explain right now. I had an episode almost two weeks ( Read more... )

Normally when I get online, I'll get about 3 IMs within the first five minutes of being on. Right now, I've been signed on for 14 minutes and not 1 IM. There are friends on, three people who would normally IM me. They're not anymore. I got mad at one, got in a fight with the other (but the fight is cleared up), and I don't know what Susan's doing ( Read more... )

Wow, I think I'm actually forgetting to post in my Live Journal. Xanga has so much to offer, but I have such a history in my Live Journal, and Laura refuses to read my Xanga if I stop posting in Live Journal. *sighs ( Read more... )

Ugh! Mom didn't leave me any break money, and I didn't eat anything all day. I was starving at work. I was shaking and felt weak. I was happy that I had gotten sleep the night before though ( Read more... )

Last night, I stayed up all night besides like 2 hours of desperate sleep. I'm trying to protest the fact that mom let's Amanda do what she wants but I get yelled at for every little thing. I don't think it's working ( Read more... )

So Kevin and I started talking tonight, and everything was fine. Then we got into a big fight again, mostly about his age. He still won't tell me his age. One day he'll say he's 15, the next day he'll tell me he's 16. I don't know what to believe, and it feels like he doesn't trust me. I told him not to talk to me until he trusts me. He got pissed ( Read more... )

One of my friends is deceiving another friend, and I have to break it to the friend soon that this is going on. I'm going to loose both of them in the end ( Read more... )

Omg. I asked my mom earlier today if Kevin could sleep over. I didn't tell her, but he was planning on having a drink and wanted to stay here instead of going all the way home. She said no, she doesn't want anyone else sleeping over anymore! She said that that's enough. I came home and guess who's van was in the driveway! Luis'! God! I'm fucking ( Read more... )