I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell...
Well.
Work's been, er, canceled, so to speak, on account of shitty outdoor conditions, so I now have a free afternoon.
That I really could have used a lot more yesterday.
God, I was fucked up yesterday.
You see, because it's a minor condition and doesn't often come up, I tend to forget that I am technically anemic.
And when I go to long without taking proper care of myself (like usual), it will eventually rear its head.
Only by that point I've forgotten I even have it and no longer understand the problem.
So last night when I went to work I was essentially going out of my mind. Everything about me just felt scattered, my thoughts, my head, my body, everything about me just didn't feel right. I was also having trouble getting my arm to work properly (couldn't even lift a fuckin' 12 pack to scan it) and my legs felt uncomfortable and just...ugh.
Naturally I also had a nonstop stream of customers so I didn't even have a chance to sit down and try to sort out my head. I called my grandmother in a short lull just to talk to her and try to straighten myself out, but I only succeeded in worrying her before more customers poured in and I had to hang up. She of course called my mother, who called me, and we spent the next half hour playing phone tag just trying to figure out what was wrong because the customers would just not stop coming.
I was losing my mind. It wasn't pretty. I started laughing at some point at the whole thing, so I think I was getting a little hysterical.
It was when I finally called her back and had a minute to talk to her (and confess that I had yet to eat anything since I woke up) that she reminded me that I was probably suffering from anemia.
I just kind of went, 'oh. Right. I have that, don't I?'
I even went and looked up the systems of my case when I got home and it fit my meltdown to a 'T'.
Well, shit.
Another thing I have to keep an eye on.
And speaking of eyes, I have to take my crybaby kitten to the vet tomorrow. He's been squinting out of his left eye the last few days. I just woke up the other day and he was doing it so I checked it out, but there was no noticeable swelling or irritation, and he didn't appear in any pain or discomfort when I tried to get a better look. His eye was a little wet, but that was all, so I figured I'd just keep an eye on it and see if it got any worse. Over the last few days he has been squinting less, and I still haven't seen anything aside from a buildup of water in the corner of his eye, but I've been unable to determine why it's bothering him at all, especially given when I try to figure out what makes him squint more seems to be inconsistent, as we thought it might be light sources but he'll be looking up at me full on in the light with both eyes wide open and won't squint at all. Then he'll lurk off for a bit and turn his head and he's squinting again.
So since there seems to be improvement and yet no explanation for what is even wrong, we figure better safe than sorry.
On a better note, I came up with this awesome story idea, for Hetalia of all things, based off this picture I found while surfing zerochan the other day. It started forming around 1 in the morning, just when I was thinking of heading to bed, so I went back and looked at the picture again, and then kept going back to it, and the idea just grew and grew and then I started typing it out. I was up till 3 just writing out character profiles and terminology and plot points and story tidbits. Now I have almost all the major parts ironed out, and am going back and working on the loose ends and finer points and starting to write the story itself.
God, I hope I actually keep up with it. It's rolling now, sure, but that's how it always starts. Then I keep getting ahead of myself and typing out pieces from all over in the story and neglect actually writing out the actual chapters. That's what I'm doing with my Assassin's Creed story. I keep going back and adding more stuff to all the later chapters, and I still haven't finished rounding out the first two, so I can't actually post it.
God dammit.
It appears to be my biggest obstacle with all my stories. I write tons of shit on them, but they're from all over the storyline, so they're only comprehensible to me, who knows the whole story. Hopefully I'll fix that one day.
And now for no reason, fedora.
Let it be known that I have no particular love for skull motifs unless the design itself is cool, but I AM a sucker for anything with bird designs (or at least good ones), so I couldn't help myself and picked it up when we were out today.
Now I've got my thinking cap on.
Work's been, er, canceled, so to speak, on account of shitty outdoor conditions, so I now have a free afternoon.
That I really could have used a lot more yesterday.
God, I was fucked up yesterday.
You see, because it's a minor condition and doesn't often come up, I tend to forget that I am technically anemic.
And when I go to long without taking proper care of myself (like usual), it will eventually rear its head.
Only by that point I've forgotten I even have it and no longer understand the problem.
So last night when I went to work I was essentially going out of my mind. Everything about me just felt scattered, my thoughts, my head, my body, everything about me just didn't feel right. I was also having trouble getting my arm to work properly (couldn't even lift a fuckin' 12 pack to scan it) and my legs felt uncomfortable and just...ugh.
Naturally I also had a nonstop stream of customers so I didn't even have a chance to sit down and try to sort out my head. I called my grandmother in a short lull just to talk to her and try to straighten myself out, but I only succeeded in worrying her before more customers poured in and I had to hang up. She of course called my mother, who called me, and we spent the next half hour playing phone tag just trying to figure out what was wrong because the customers would just not stop coming.
I was losing my mind. It wasn't pretty. I started laughing at some point at the whole thing, so I think I was getting a little hysterical.
It was when I finally called her back and had a minute to talk to her (and confess that I had yet to eat anything since I woke up) that she reminded me that I was probably suffering from anemia.
I just kind of went, 'oh. Right. I have that, don't I?'
I even went and looked up the systems of my case when I got home and it fit my meltdown to a 'T'.
Well, shit.
Another thing I have to keep an eye on.
And speaking of eyes, I have to take my crybaby kitten to the vet tomorrow. He's been squinting out of his left eye the last few days. I just woke up the other day and he was doing it so I checked it out, but there was no noticeable swelling or irritation, and he didn't appear in any pain or discomfort when I tried to get a better look. His eye was a little wet, but that was all, so I figured I'd just keep an eye on it and see if it got any worse. Over the last few days he has been squinting less, and I still haven't seen anything aside from a buildup of water in the corner of his eye, but I've been unable to determine why it's bothering him at all, especially given when I try to figure out what makes him squint more seems to be inconsistent, as we thought it might be light sources but he'll be looking up at me full on in the light with both eyes wide open and won't squint at all. Then he'll lurk off for a bit and turn his head and he's squinting again.
So since there seems to be improvement and yet no explanation for what is even wrong, we figure better safe than sorry.
On a better note, I came up with this awesome story idea, for Hetalia of all things, based off this picture I found while surfing zerochan the other day. It started forming around 1 in the morning, just when I was thinking of heading to bed, so I went back and looked at the picture again, and then kept going back to it, and the idea just grew and grew and then I started typing it out. I was up till 3 just writing out character profiles and terminology and plot points and story tidbits. Now I have almost all the major parts ironed out, and am going back and working on the loose ends and finer points and starting to write the story itself.
God, I hope I actually keep up with it. It's rolling now, sure, but that's how it always starts. Then I keep getting ahead of myself and typing out pieces from all over in the story and neglect actually writing out the actual chapters. That's what I'm doing with my Assassin's Creed story. I keep going back and adding more stuff to all the later chapters, and I still haven't finished rounding out the first two, so I can't actually post it.
God dammit.
It appears to be my biggest obstacle with all my stories. I write tons of shit on them, but they're from all over the storyline, so they're only comprehensible to me, who knows the whole story. Hopefully I'll fix that one day.
And now for no reason, fedora.
Let it be known that I have no particular love for skull motifs unless the design itself is cool, but I AM a sucker for anything with bird designs (or at least good ones), so I couldn't help myself and picked it up when we were out today.
Now I've got my thinking cap on.