So much has happened since my last journal update. I've waited with terror and despair, I've finally miscarried, I've mourned, I've grieved, I've fallen into depression and lost nights and nights worth of sleep. I've become obsessively addicted to the first video game that came my way in order to avoid the reality of my situation. (It was Harvest ( Read more... )

After I got off the computer this afternoon I usually watch the evening news, because even though I care little for the crap that's been going on lately I still like to be informed about said crap. There's nothing worse than being ignorant ( Read more... )

I've been sneezing all day long, but I really don't think I'm sick at all. One of the surgical scars in the back of my throat has been irritated or something and it's forcing me to sneeze over and over again until it drives me up the wall ( Read more... )

Back on the bandwagon for one last ride, roll along with me son, this ain't no summer tide
I was wondering, for once in my damed life, if I'd ever see a reflection that was correct
And if I did, would I hail the water as a friend?Another day in paradise. I'm happy, but at the same time I'm so damned depressed. It's like a depression that becomes so ( Read more... )

I'm happy, my sisters are going back to school on Monday and I DON'T HAVE TO. It's great, now I can get the things done that I need to do around the house without bumping into them all the time. Even though Wendy spends 90% of her time with Phil, whether it's the holidays or not, which I consider a blessing, because her bitchiness is not directed ( Read more... )

Went and saw 'Sin City' with Chris last night and the movie was brilliant. I loved all the black and white imagery with the white and red highlights, the incredible amount of violence and bloodshed, the witty and laugh out loud humor, and the positively wonderful way all four sections of plot join together perfectly. It was excellent. Because we ( Read more... )

I've been feeling more refreshed lately, so that's a good thing. It's because the trial exams are over and I passed them all that I don't feel so anxious anymore. The slipping grades from last term have been kicked up back to where they should be. After the 26th of August, I can finally work again creatively on the net. I want this hiatus to be ( Read more... )

I've finished all my trial HSC exams. Thank god I got all of those out of the way. I had my Ancient History examination as the final one, and boy, writing four essays in three hours wiped me out for the rest of the day. It hurt my brain ( Read more... )

Winter is wrestling for dominition again in my country. It been getting so darn cold, and with all the heaters off limits and turned off, I've just been dressing as warmly as I can. Right now I'm wearing my extra warm black PJs, sheepskin-lined boots, woolen gloves with the tips cut off so I can type properly, and my Dominic-Deegan scarf. It's ( Read more... )

I dunno why, but suddenly I feel so depressed all of a sudden. It's not a sad kind of depression, like I usually get, but more like a numbing deadness on the inside. I have no idea what's causing it, it's probably sheer terror at having to go back to school on Tuesday and not wanting to, coupled with missing my friends so terribly after they left ( Read more... )