Love me hate me just dont ignore me... Cant get you out of my head...

[blackpillow]

I hate today. Today was horrible. I am never going back to school again. Never. I dont wanna see there. I dont wanna see him. It hurts cuz I didnt even know what I did... I didnt do anything. I dont get it... Guys just love to make my life hell. Oh well... I dont know any solutions, well I know one but I am not gonna resort to that ever. Not unless. Well never mind about that. I didnt eat all day ecpet some fishys @ lunch and a juice box. And I dont plan on eating. Tonite I might eat cuz I might have too. But I dont plan ondoing so out off free will. God dam it... I knew everything was going too well. I dont get it, A) What did friday night mean nothing? B) Why can't I get my mind off of it... WHY??? C) I think it is akward for him to talk to me and he is going to fade like tyler... I dont want that. Another bad thing is that I am datless for the dance and I dont think I am gonna go. At least not to the greenboro. I hurt so much inside. No one gets it really. I guess they do but. Why? Why does it have to hurt so much. I just want everything to go back to normal. Oh yeah, I love you guys for tolerating just barely with me. Key words Just Barely. I am a horible friend and person. Cicioty dont need me. I hurts. I would end life but... well there would be no point in that... lets just put it like this, Love me, Hate me, Just dont ignor me. The immortal words off well the dead No thank you. I was loving life. Now well life sucks. The end has come. If I live to tommorow I will try and write an entry at 4 in the morning again. But personaly I dont think it will work tonite. I am gonna be tierd. Ohhh well.... I just jave to think off it like that... Oh well Oh well... Oh well... dam it its not working. Ontop of that I have a lab report due and stupid science questions also I have serie 5 a faire for monday... If you have the question in mind What sucks more then not having a boyfriend, here is you answer getting dumped by your boyfriend. Personaly I say stay out off dating untill you get guys who will stay with you for more then a month... for more then well, for more then well... u are. See past wierdness. I bet u thats what happend... He seen the real me. He told me he wouldnt get someone eles to tell me and he told me that he was going to like me until the day he dumped me. He told me all of this and didnt keep any of it.. Here ♥ take my heart... just break it... why would I need it anyways? EH??? I dont need a heart... I will live... or not...

~Ari- Passionit @ hating herself...