Friends

[blackpillow]

I have learned something. Friends are really forever. I love my friends to death. Yeah... if you haven't caught on I have been dumped. I swore I would cry or well do anything drastic and now I feel really really bad. I feel like I took them for granted. I am so cold. I am really sad. I cryied a lil cuz I truely cared about him. There is no reson but I bet u its cuz ppl find out how wierd I am and only like me in the friend kinda way after that. I am so angry. Though it is probably my fault this happend. U may have guessed that it is four in the moring. Lets put it like this. Too sad to sleep. Today would have been around a month we have been going out but it really dosent matter. Its not really him dumping me that makes me upset right now, its more well, how I responded twords it. My friends are gonna be so mad @ me. I dont think when I do these things. They'll never find out unless the read my journal witch no one does although... well... Cat does. No one eles will unless I tell them, "Oh look :) I updated my journal. Though I wish not for most people to read my journal. I will leave it free to be read. People, I think it will be a long time befor I will go dating again. A LONG time. Belive me. I am so sickend. Guys always are my problem and for once I wish for it NOT to be like that. Michelle and Sean are nice and happy so is alot of my other friends. I will be too. Other then the fact I cant get Stephen off my mind but of well. I sould try and get back to sleep... though thats gonna work

~Ari-saddend b herself doings